Looking within me

Looking within me

What I see is an intelligent and beautiful girl that is not sure how she wants to end her fairytale.

She has built the frame of her future but unsure how she really wants to fill them. She has an idea of every aspect and corner of her life, but unsure of the finishing details. She wants something so badly in her own childish ways and determined NOT to settle.

I am ready for the unknown to come into my life. I greet my beautiful and wonderful new journey unfolding and entering into my life. I must say that I am extremely exited to find what suprise the Universe has in store for me!

I am ready for the ride!

The new me is strong. All hurt and pain no longer exist. I am a brand new me. One that no one may completely “get” , however, knowing who I really am is what matters. I am ok with having people scratch their heads and wondering who and how I really am. I think that is your job to figure that out, not one for me to explain. If you want to get to know me, then really get to know me through my writing.

I am who I am, and will never change who I am for anyone.

Are you ready for this challenge?

The old me was a shattered soul, one that died with a spark of hope. The hope grew and I became seduced and overtaken by hope. It them unfolded and became reality. My past is FINALLY a past. I have no more ghosts to create as I blessed them all away.

I am a woman, A Rock and a Proud Single Mother!

Power to all my single moms out there that make a better life for their babies daily!

Life Situations

Life Situations

Life situations can be complex at times.

Applying yourself in expanding your horizons will make things in a little easier.

I have been a rubber band all my life. I had to stretch myself all over the place to be able to understand and acknowledge life changes. It becomes complex and overwhelming at times, however learning the beauty in life is rewarding.

Life situations make you who you are now. You are the one creating such a beautiful place. If you don’t like your life, then change what you want in life stating with yourself. People are quick to point fingers, but if you start looking at your actions and do not like when other people do them, then you need to change what YOU DON’T like.

Life situations are what you make them to be. You have no one to blame but yourself. I have gone through so much pain, disappointment, and hurt. I stopped dwelling on the past. I learned from every situation and I applied it into my new life so that my life would continue to stay on a better track!

Why cry, hate, and talk about something you cannot change from the past. You need to become stronger and apply your learning smarts into your life!

You may want to say, “well, I have been through so much and it hurts”. I think we all have in so many different ways. I went to hell and back more times in my life that Hell kicked me out because they were so tired of seeing me there. Everyone has unique situations and it cannot be compared to everyone else’s situations. Remember that everyones personal tolerance is different. You may not see it as they do.

I believe that if you hold on to the past you will never move on or succeed.

Life is extremely beautiful. It is how you make things within your life so that it may become beautiful.

Love yourself FIRST, then anyone else. You will be more productive and feel confident. Love and pamper yourself first. Take care of your body, mind and spirit. After you take care of your body, mind and spirit, you can conquer ANYTHING!!

possibilities

possibilities

Creating possibilities in life is such a wonderful gift to have. People need to have open options in life so one may grow. If we isolate ourselves, we will never have an opportunity to learn.

I used to be a closed minded person. I became bored with life. I needed excitement. I started to open my mind more to new things and experiences that were coming at me. I studied them. I learned from them. It became an obsession. I wanted to know the ins and outs of things. I became a happier person because I was able to experience and learn from life.

I see so many possibilities we all have. I realize that some take them and others are simply blinded and are let go.

I believe that i have opened doors to different possibilities. I have lost people in my life but gained knowledge. I gained the knowledge, analysed it and applied the best result in my daily life/routine.

Many people see me as a very different but unique person. I believe in different things in life that not many people understand. I am very content with my beliefs, life and myself. I am very thankful for my kids. Without possibilities this would have never occurred.

Possibilities is a very strong word. with possibilities you, use it, create from it and always be you!

Meeting Myself

Meeting Myself

As i’m enjoying myself in my hot steamy garden tub, Candles are lit, soft music playing, and dim lights . Relaxation hits the core.

I sit thinking about how my life began and the path it has taken. I have found so many different outlets that are within me that are pulsating, waiting to burst. I was unsure to where these feelings where headed, but when I analysed my emotions, I came to the conclusion that I am very happy where I am today and how much i have grown as a person and spiritually. It has made me realize in detail how valuable I am. What a great person I am. I hold true to friends. I am able to detach from people that no longer serve their purpose in my life any longer. I am a strong and unique person.

I could name so many different values that run through my mind. I sit here thinking , “I wonder if everyone else feels the same way I do ? I wonder if they value them for who they are”?

I believe that everyone should take the time out and analyse their lives and love them for who they are, Values, and formation in life.

I believe that everyone should take pride in who they are and who they are becoming.

When i first started this journey in life, It was extremely painful in so many ways. I had learned to deal with so many different scenarios in such a short amount of time.

I have learned valuable lessons in life and apply them daily.

Living my life is not easy, however it is an adventurous one. I have learned so much in such a short amount of time in life, that i have accepted all the good and bad with open arms.

I have creatively applied values that were taught to me in the most roughest and toughest ways imaginable. I can proudly say that I lived through them and conquered every one of them. I feel like the ball of power is in my hands because i have not failed a battle. I live eagerly awaiting what the next battle would be.I know and am determined that I, again will win.

Meeting myself has been the most exciting part in my life. It has showen me the growth of the new me.

Life is seen in such a different light. I see things in so many ways, angles and form. It is astonishing for me to see how life traditions have been taught to me in several different ways. I learned to see life at a whole different angle and level.

I finally am able to enjoy myself. Learning about “the new me” has made me feel confidant in where I stand.

Inspired beauty from the Gods above, Personality of a Goddess, Seductive as Lucifer, Artistic like angels and Strength inherited by God himself!

Why cannot one, love themselves ?

I love me in so many ways. I realized from the moment I met myself , that this was going to be a fun ride!

My desire for everyone, is to feel beauty from within!

MY WONDERING MIND

MY WONDERING MIND

MY WONDERING MIND

Posted on 29th March 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Twin Flame

When I think of you, I smile.

While I write this, I have a strong smile on my face. I think about the silly things you and I will do. I randomly imagine times you will hide and try to jump at me to try and scare me in some funny way.

I can picture you tickling me on the bed or chasing after me over our bed.

I can envision you hugging me with your strong beautiful arms and softly kissing my forehead.

I sit here mentally creating, different occasions in different circumstances.

I enjoy every second of it.

Missing you is the exciting part. Although I don’t know you, I know you are on your way to me. I want you here and now, but anticipation kicks in.

I miss not having you at this moment by my side, however its the mental teaser that I absolutely crave.

I eagerly await you.

WHEN I FINALLY MEET YOU, WE WILL KNOW!

I Desire You!

I Desire You!

I Desire You!

Posted on 25th March 2011 in Emotions, Twin Flame

I sit here thinking of you. The ironic thing is, I don’t know you!

Creating my new and beautiful world is a creation that needs to be 200% beautiful, perfect, endless, and Pure Love. I have been creating you from head to toe. You are so Amazing to me. You will love me endlessly.

I am the one, you cant stop thinking of. I have you captivated with my inner me. You see the real beauty that no one else sees. You are the one that will stop the world to be with me.

We will feel parallel to our feeling.

My Desire for you is so strong, that It kills me to wait for you. It crushes me not being by your side.

I know that I am hurting and i know it’s worth the wait. Pain is only Gain.

I need to assure the creation being created, is the perfect one for us.

I feel sorrow when I see couples in the street madly in-love. I feel as if I am missing someone to touch, kiss, hold and cuddle.

I feel contentment with my friends when they fall in love or start dating. Then I ask myself, “When is it going to be my turn”?

I feel alone at night without you by my side.

I know that it is for the best!

When you and I meet, it will be a creation in heaven. The clouds will move faster of joyful celebration. The wind will start blowing and caress us in gratitude. The sun will shine upon us to greet it’s happiness and full of light. The moon calms us when its evening so we can spend timeless time together. The stars glide and dance of contentment. The rain blesses us with its cool and pure rain drops. We have all creation and nature excited and illuminated.

This is because the Universe shows us the celebration of us!

Passionate you are!

Desire is mine to you.

I await eagerly for you with open arms.

I Love you!!!

Waiting for the ride

Waiting for the ride

Waiting for the ride

Posted on 28th March 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Self motivation

As I sit here, waiting for the ride. I look up unto the sky and I ask, “How long?”. The sky gleams with the moonlight and I feel the answer burning into my gut. The gut feeling is so strong that I have a bright and exited smile. I know the answer and it was “Soon”.

Although I feel as our time is around the corner, I become more and more impatient. I need to learn how to calm my nerves, my blood from running too fast, my heart from beating, and my mind from running.

Patience, I have learned to be a part of. Consuming patience and inner peace is a part of me, that I forgot to nurture. This is a huge part of what will bloom and function in my life.

Now, i ask myself, “Am i ready for the ride?”.

I say yes, but my soul takes on a whole different meaning to the question.

My soul imagines me getting onto a roller-coaster. One of the biggest roller coasters in the world. As i sit with excitement and know I will experience the adrenaline rush, I become animated, Passionate, and accelerated.

I know that once I am on this roller coaster, the end result is being with YOU!

Seeing you waiting for me with open arms when i get off the roller coaster. You looking into my big deep brown eyes and showing me with a mere glance, how much you miss and love me.

I am the one that you will await for.

You will want to ride with me.

You are excited too.

You are willing and submissive enough too.

I am dangerous and you know it, this is what excites you so much about me!

Do you dare ride with me? I know you will !!A