Meeting Myself

Meeting Myself

As i’m enjoying myself in my hot steamy garden tub, Candles are lit, soft music playing, and dim lights . Relaxation hits the core.

I sit thinking about how my life began and the path it has taken. I have found so many different outlets that are within me that are pulsating, waiting to burst. I was unsure to where these feelings where headed, but when I analysed my emotions, I came to the conclusion that I am very happy where I am today and how much i have grown as a person and spiritually. It has made me realize in detail how valuable I am. What a great person I am. I hold true to friends. I am able to detach from people that no longer serve their purpose in my life any longer. I am a strong and unique person.

I could name so many different values that run through my mind. I sit here thinking , “I wonder if everyone else feels the same way I do ? I wonder if they value them for who they are”?

I believe that everyone should take the time out and analyse their lives and love them for who they are, Values, and formation in life.

I believe that everyone should take pride in who they are and who they are becoming.

When i first started this journey in life, It was extremely painful in so many ways. I had learned to deal with so many different scenarios in such a short amount of time.

I have learned valuable lessons in life and apply them daily.

Living my life is not easy, however it is an adventurous one. I have learned so much in such a short amount of time in life, that i have accepted all the good and bad with open arms.

I have creatively applied values that were taught to me in the most roughest and toughest ways imaginable. I can proudly say that I lived through them and conquered every one of them. I feel like the ball of power is in my hands because i have not failed a battle. I live eagerly awaiting what the next battle would be.I know and am determined that I, again will win.

Meeting myself has been the most exciting part in my life. It has showen me the growth of the new me.

Life is seen in such a different light. I see things in so many ways, angles and form. It is astonishing for me to see how life traditions have been taught to me in several different ways. I learned to see life at a whole different angle and level.

I finally am able to enjoy myself. Learning about “the new me” has made me feel confidant in where I stand.

Inspired beauty from the Gods above, Personality of a Goddess, Seductive as Lucifer, Artistic like angels and Strength inherited by God himself!

Why cannot one, love themselves ?

I love me in so many ways. I realized from the moment I met myself , that this was going to be a fun ride!

My desire for everyone, is to feel beauty from within!

MY WONDERING MIND

MY WONDERING MIND

MY WONDERING MIND

Posted on 29th March 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Twin Flame

When I think of you, I smile.

While I write this, I have a strong smile on my face. I think about the silly things you and I will do. I randomly imagine times you will hide and try to jump at me to try and scare me in some funny way.

I can picture you tickling me on the bed or chasing after me over our bed.

I can envision you hugging me with your strong beautiful arms and softly kissing my forehead.

I sit here mentally creating, different occasions in different circumstances.

I enjoy every second of it.

Missing you is the exciting part. Although I don’t know you, I know you are on your way to me. I want you here and now, but anticipation kicks in.

I miss not having you at this moment by my side, however its the mental teaser that I absolutely crave.

I eagerly await you.

WHEN I FINALLY MEET YOU, WE WILL KNOW!

I Desire You!

I Desire You!

I Desire You!

Posted on 25th March 2011 in Emotions, Twin Flame

I sit here thinking of you. The ironic thing is, I don’t know you!

Creating my new and beautiful world is a creation that needs to be 200% beautiful, perfect, endless, and Pure Love. I have been creating you from head to toe. You are so Amazing to me. You will love me endlessly.

I am the one, you cant stop thinking of. I have you captivated with my inner me. You see the real beauty that no one else sees. You are the one that will stop the world to be with me.

We will feel parallel to our feeling.

My Desire for you is so strong, that It kills me to wait for you. It crushes me not being by your side.

I know that I am hurting and i know it’s worth the wait. Pain is only Gain.

I need to assure the creation being created, is the perfect one for us.

I feel sorrow when I see couples in the street madly in-love. I feel as if I am missing someone to touch, kiss, hold and cuddle.

I feel contentment with my friends when they fall in love or start dating. Then I ask myself, “When is it going to be my turn”?

I feel alone at night without you by my side.

I know that it is for the best!

When you and I meet, it will be a creation in heaven. The clouds will move faster of joyful celebration. The wind will start blowing and caress us in gratitude. The sun will shine upon us to greet it’s happiness and full of light. The moon calms us when its evening so we can spend timeless time together. The stars glide and dance of contentment. The rain blesses us with its cool and pure rain drops. We have all creation and nature excited and illuminated.

This is because the Universe shows us the celebration of us!

Passionate you are!

Desire is mine to you.

I await eagerly for you with open arms.

I Love you!!!

Waiting for the ride

Waiting for the ride

Waiting for the ride

Posted on 28th March 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Self motivation

As I sit here, waiting for the ride. I look up unto the sky and I ask, “How long?”. The sky gleams with the moonlight and I feel the answer burning into my gut. The gut feeling is so strong that I have a bright and exited smile. I know the answer and it was “Soon”.

Although I feel as our time is around the corner, I become more and more impatient. I need to learn how to calm my nerves, my blood from running too fast, my heart from beating, and my mind from running.

Patience, I have learned to be a part of. Consuming patience and inner peace is a part of me, that I forgot to nurture. This is a huge part of what will bloom and function in my life.

Now, i ask myself, “Am i ready for the ride?”.

I say yes, but my soul takes on a whole different meaning to the question.

My soul imagines me getting onto a roller-coaster. One of the biggest roller coasters in the world. As i sit with excitement and know I will experience the adrenaline rush, I become animated, Passionate, and accelerated.

I know that once I am on this roller coaster, the end result is being with YOU!

Seeing you waiting for me with open arms when i get off the roller coaster. You looking into my big deep brown eyes and showing me with a mere glance, how much you miss and love me.

I am the one that you will await for.

You will want to ride with me.

You are excited too.

You are willing and submissive enough too.

I am dangerous and you know it, this is what excites you so much about me!

Do you dare ride with me? I know you will !!A

Sending you kisses

Sending you kisses

My Dearest Lancelot,

I send you kisses everyday. No matter where you are.

I wonder if you feel them touch your skin?

My obsession is you. You are the lifeline that keeps me uplifted and alive.

You are the one that fills my soul with love, energy and life.

You inspire my kids like no one has ever done. You took them under your wing and nurtured them as if you were their biological father. You teach them what life is about and how important it is to become a better them.

You have done more for us emotionally than anyone else in our lives. You care for us, you nurture us, you pamper us, and most importantly you love us unconditionally. We feel the pureness of your love. We feel the inner you.

The inner you is so beautiful. It is magic. One that cannot be explained, but felt.

When you are not with me, I feel you. I feel your energy. It is so pure and perfect. You are the perfect me, and I am the perfect you. We are as one and this is how love really should be. Its so pure that you dont know how to take it. A love with no limitations, no ego, no jealousy, only of Love.

Did you know that you are the one I send kisses too daily?

My lips pucker and softly releases kisses of pure, soothing and sexual energy. I sigh every time I release a kiss to you.

I wonder once the kiss touches your skin from afar, do you feel any sensations?

Do you realize that it is I sending you kisses?

Do I even cross your mind?

Answer me Lancelot, what do you feel, what do you think, what do you sense?

Remember my dear, It is the loving part of me, loving you in spirit.

I love you and I forever will!

Sincerly,

Guinevere

What I would do to you

What I would do to you

(This is written by one of my fans that read my blogs. Great story!)

Umm… wish i was waiting at your house naked in your bed to deliver some nice kind licking to that sweet tangy pussy of yours… love to be sucking on that clit and licking that perfectly pink taco of yours until your pussy was dripping wet… how would you like that?

I hope you are blushing, cause that is the first step.. Would love to be licking and sucking on that clit until your were arching your back and pushing my head into your pussy to drive my toungue deeper and faster… licking and twirling on that clit… my hands reaching under your ass to drive closer to my face…. your legs squirming… your breathing really heavy… almost moaning as you are building inside with excitement and your pussy is wet, hot, and on fire… BIG SMILES…..

Now I hope you are a lil excited, which is even is better… and lets just say that i would love to more than lick that pussy… love to give you a nice finger fuck at the same time… making sure to rub your clit up and down between my forefinger and thumb, before slipping my finger deep inside you and working it in and out… with the other hand on your nipples twisting them gently and and squeezing your breast… umm… your pussy is just so fucking dripping we now… umm… wonder what is next?

oh fuck, thats right… next would be me easing you up on all fours with that nice and juicy ass facing me and slipping my stiff cock gently into the wet pussy… oh jesus.. almost had to keep from cumming right there cause it was so wet, warm, and moist and nice and tight around my thick hard cock… slowly slipping it in deeper…. my hands reaching around to grab your tits… rub your clit and ease it even deeper… i am thick baby… and want you to feel all of me… then i am just going to find a nice rocking motions… holding your hips to my cock as a work the speed a little faster and harder…a little moan escapes your lips and i slap that ass… my balls are now slapping against that pussy as i am arching my back… driving it deeper and harder… your tits are swinging around… and i am really fucking you now… i bet that is what you want tonight when you come home…. I hope it is and would love to give you something more; okay????
well, i can say that i would love to have thos succulent lips around my cock and squirt my cum deep down your throat… a nice big salty sweet tasting load… umm.. that makes my cock hard just thinking about it… so nice… love to be squeezing those perfect tits.. while you just sucking me off… cant get enough of your whole body… loving it and just having you lick the cum off the tip of my cock gets me so hard and horny… love to think about you could be licking me and sucking me and playing with my balls… love to give you all of my hard cock… damn you are fucking sexy… love to give that pussy exactly what you want… and hope that right now you are as wet as i am hard biggest smile ever!

Why me?

Why me?

I start to think to myself, why someone so perfect like you want to be with someone that has so many flaws.

I am very demanding, I at times can be selfish and just hard to deal with.

I wonder if you will one day get tired of me and just say, “Fuck it, I cant take this anymore”. I feel as if the walls start to tremble and start to fall. I wonder once they fall if they will lye there forever?

I have been hurt so many times. I have been stomped on, beaten, and spit on. I have never had a solid support in my life.

My mother never cared, my father almost killed me and I have so much hatred in my family. Everyone talks about each-other, they act like they love you but make fun of you when you turn. My family starts drama just for the hell of things. No one really cares.

I have started to become the outsider of the family. The one that makes her own nest, the nest of peace and love. I get condemned for being different. Being the one that does not want to follow in their religious “Footsteps”. The one that started to resent and hate religion. The one that stomps and despises what religion teaches, as they are all egoistic people. The majority will not follow examples of what Jesus did or practiced, but they preach, “What will Jesus do?” I have family members that are extremely hypocrite. I am not condemning any of them, if they are happy this way, then so be it. They are adults, they can do what they want to do.

Why would you want to be with someone like me?

You are extremely pure in spirit. You are perfect for any woman out there. You are beautiful. You are honest, caring and have a wonderful life.

I became a stronger person in life because of all the bullshit I had to see, hear and even experience. My life was not a walk in the park, but I don’t blame anyone either for my decisions. I learned from all the horrific experiences. I became a stronger person.

I am a different person. One that will stand up for herself. Express who she is, even if others “Judge” her.

Sometimes I feel dead inside. It is like I am fed up with life, people, family and even myself.

Why be with someone like me? Why take chances with someone that never had a normal life and all is so chaotic? WHY??

Why have a relationship with someone that needs more inspiration of just “Whatever the fuck it may be”?

You are so perfect in every way. You have no idea how perfect you are. You dont see what I see.

I see a man that is worth more than any emerald, gold, Diamonds or luxury on this Universe. You are every woman’s dream.

I can honestly say that those that did you wrong were so stupid and naive because if they really realized what they had, they would have kept you in a golden box filled with riches and love.

I guess I have never told you this, but I am intimidated by you. In a way that only my heart knows how to explain it.

You have nothing to lose, only to gain. You have no idea how perfect you are. You have no idea. I see it. I feel it and I wish I had just a grain of sand of what you fully have.

Although, I have a lot of hurt that has healed slowly, suffered in ways unimaginable and overcome it, and cried so many tears that would have filled the Atlantic ocean over and over again, the Universe sent you to me. I must have something of value. I must have something to give you because the Universe never fails. It gives you the most perfect gifts in life although we still question them and do not utilize the time to caress it, we tend to question why it was sent to us.

All I can say is that I love you with all of me. Although I don’t have a lot to offer, I can offer you the purity of my love to you.

If you are ok with being with someone so imperfect,that has disowned the majority of her family, Is starting over in creating better friends and being an awesome mother, than I want to stay with you forever!

You have no idea what you mean to me or my little Angels. We love you endlessly with no expectations.

I love you!