nightmare

This morning, I woke up from having a nightmare. One that I never want to have again. It was the worse dream any mother could ever experience. One that is every mothers nightmare. I was in shock when I woke up. I was devastated in my dream.

I faced one of my worse fears in my dreams. One that I thought I had come to peace with. One that I need to close in this lifetime. One that I need to come with ammends with. One that I have been avoiding the entire time in my life. One that I thought I would never have to face anymore.

I have come face to face with my hidden truths in my dreams. It hurts so badly that I am not sure how to overcome this fear, nonetheless a long hidden past I once had. One I thought was over, one I thought would never haunt me.

When I woke, I had 3 children in my bed. They crawled in after being frightened of the loud wind outside. I realized that the Angels in my bed are the most powerful beings in my life. they are what I live for. They are my all, my life. The only person that was missing was you. The one, I could get a hug from when I am upset from a nightmare. The one that could kiss me on my forehead and assure me that it was only a dream and you would never let anything happen to my Angels.

I realized how much I really miss you when I was looking for the affection of you. The assurance of everything being OK, was nowhere to be found.

I need you..

I truley MISS YOU!