Prostitution Skit

Prostitution Skit

It was dark, but with the city lights, it didn't feel so dark. I was walking several blocks down from your apartment.

I had on black stalkings, with holes through-out. Black mini skirt made out of silk. White Satin blouse that showed half of my breasts. The blouse was tight at the breast area and loose below the breasts. I had my long golden brown hair down. I had black boots with the heals high. My make-up was natural but a tad bit darker. I was walking swaying my ass back and fourth. Taking the long strap of my purse and playing with it while I walked. I was chewing gum in a very Unattractive way.

Everyone on the street would stare at me. I seen the woman on the street whispering while looking at me. Others were giggling. I just walked swaying myself as a true prostitute would. I was smiling knowing that you were going to pick me up at the street corner. I was going to be YOUR prostitute for the evening.

While I finally walked to where you and I had agreed, I stood there waiting for you. When I seen your car approaching, a police officer parked his vehicle in front of me. He lowered the window on his patrol car. He leaned over and asked me how much I was charging tonight. I smiled and said, "What, I have no idea what you are referring too". The police giggled and said, "Don't act stupid, you know what I am referring too, young lady". I responded, "Maybe if you give me a price sheet, I can tell you..". The police officer was a little frustrated with me and said, "Move, this is not a place for you." I replied, "I am waiting for my ride". The officer replied, "As long as you are waiting a ride and not soliciting, then carry on." I smiled and the police officer started to drive off.

You started to drive up and seen that the officer stopped to talk to me. You looked over and smiled at me while driving up as you were on the opposite side of the street. You needed to turn around to pick me up. I had a huge grin on my face. While you were turning around, a silver car drove up. They stopped where I was standing and there were two VERY cute guys. They were giggling and lowered the window. The guy in the passenger side poked out his head of the window and said, "How much"? I replied, " I charge $75.00 per blow, and $175.00 for sex." The guy said, "Do we get a discount for two?" I replied, "No, sorry.. I am the best on the streets and I don't lower my rate"(I was talking while chewing my gum). The guy said," We will pay". I replied, "Sorry, I already have a customer, but if you come back in a couple hours, I may be free". The guys agreed and left.

You seen that the guys had stopped to talk to me and you would not stop laughing. You then pulled up to where I was. You lowered the window and said,"How much?" I then replied, "$75.00 for a blow and 175.00 full". While I was talking to you, a older man walked up to me. He said, "Wow, you are a beautiful woman". I replied, "Thanks, Pops." He then asked, " How much for a peep show?" I looked over at you and smiled. I turned to the older man and replied ", For a peep show of my ass, it will be $50.00. The man replied, wow, that seems to be a lot just for a peep". I replied, " Pops, it would be worth it". The man replied "OK", and gave me $50.00. I then raised my skirt and let him see my ass. I then told him to give me his hands. I took his hands and let let him touch my ass and rubbed his hands in between my legs. His face was in complete ecstasy with only a single touch. He replied," It has been a long time since I touched a woman like this. My wife never lets me touch her anymore". He looked at you in the car as he seen you were patiently waiting for me to get done so that you could have your turn. He said to you, "Son, if you take her, she WILL be worth your wild. She is extremely sexy. If you wont take her, I will. She is worth every penny and more". He then gave me $25.00 more dollars and thanked me. I giggled and Thanked him. I turned to you and asked you if you were going to pay for my services, and you nodded. I then entered into your black car. You turned to me and said, "So, if I pay for the works, can I get a discount"? I replied,"Hell, NO.. I am the best on the streets, your $175.00 will be something you will always remember". You replied, "How much for the entire night"? I replied," Well, I will lose more money excepting this, as I fuck a lot and get lots of money, but I am feeling a little tired today, I will cut you a break.. I will charge you $500.00." You replied, "OK, I will pay". I then replied,"I need half now and the other half after services". You agreed. You started to take out your wallet and you handed me $250.00.

You took me to a back alley and said, "Blow me". I then started to unbutton your pants. I took your hard dick out and started to suck it. I sucked it hard. I started to roll may tongue all over your dick. While sucking your hard cock, I took my hands and started to caress your legs and chest. As you were feeling the excitement and the fear of getting caught, you started to cum in my mouth. I started to swallow the cum you were feeding me. I could hear the heavy breathing of contentment and the whispers from you saying, "Oh, Yeah". I then sat back up and said,"OK, that was that". You smiled and we headed back to your place.

We started to walk up to the door to your apartment and your neighbor came out. He looked at you and me. As he rarely seen you with a girl and astonished to see you with someone looking like a prostitute, he just waved hello. But you could see in his face of confusion his thoughts in his mind were thinking , "Luck guy, you dirty little dog.. wish that was me".. We proceeded to the door of your apartment.

We entered and I sat down. Not knowing what you wanted me to do next. I patiently waited. You looked at me and said,"Take off your clothes, I want to see you naked". I agreed and took off my clothes and sat back down on the couch. You looked at me for a couple of minutes and said," I want you to act like you are washing dishes. I want to fuck you while you clean my dishes." I got up from the couch and headed towards the kitchen. There were no dirty dishes in the sink so I acted as if there were. I turned the water on and placed my hands in them and acted as if I was washing dishes. You came towards me and tangled my hair in your fingers and made a fist. You pulled my head back with my hair and from behind you started to fuck me. I had soap on my hands. I started to touch my breasts while you fucked me. I had water and soap running down my breasts and stomach. You were fucking me with such passion. I was YOUR prostitute. I started to yell, "Fuck me, Fuck me hard baby". You started to feel yourself ready to cum. You took your dick out of my heated pussy. You said to me, " kneel down and open your mouth, eat me". You closed your eyes. I then opened my mouth and started to feel cum on my face and in my mouth. I started to take glide my tongue over my lips as they were full with cum. I ate your cum. I heard your hard breathing of contentment once more. When you were done, you opened your eyes. You seen me swallowing your cum and tasting my lips.

You said,"Lets shower". I obeyed. We both headed to the shower. You started to soap my body down and caress me. You said, "OK, I'm done playing now". I smiled and said, "Baby, we need to do this again and spice it up a bit.. I loved it". You kissed me and said, "I love you. This is what I want, a woman like you. You are wild, Open to ALL for me, and you satisfy me". I replied, Baby, we both satisfied each other, because as I am your female whore, you are my male whore". You kissed me. We then came out of the shower. You dried me and I dried you. We laid in the bed completely bare. I whispered in your ear, "I love you". You held me and we both fell asleep..

I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk this world alone. I am going through changes in my life. I know it is for the best. I feel alone.

I feel like I am walking a path in darkness. I see no light. All I know is that I am walking a path to an endless destination. I don't even care where I end up. I don'teven care if I make it thru this endless path I walk. I walk this path alone. No thoughts cross my mind. I just feel tears running down my cheeks. I feel frustrated for no reason. I still walk this path of nowhere. I still feel alone.

I am going through changes.

Why do i feel exhausted? Why do I feel pain from nowhere? Why am I feeling hopeless? Why do I feel this way?

Frustrations run through my veins. Sadness over takes my body and is in control. I feel like I deserve to be alone. I deserve to feel pain. My head, arms, chest, legs feel numb. Do I even care? What will happen if I disappear tomorrow?? Will anyone give a damn??

I hope I make this long journey of nowhere because I am not sure what I am going to do.

I feel like everything in my life is a lie. Nothing is meant for me. Nothing is able to make me happy because I feel like there is no hope out there for me. I feel that no one gives a damn. My heart is numb. Will it love again?

No one understands what I am going through. No one can help me. No one knows what I am going through.

I am supposed to be strong. I am supposed to be this hero, and I cannot even breath. I ran out of air. I try to hold my pain. I try to hold my tears. I try to be keep myself up. I have been walking for hours, it seems like days. I don't see the path and I don't even care. I feel cold. I feel nothing. I feel nothing in my heart. I feel nothing in my body. I should be buried. I should be nowhere.. Why am I even here?

I am going through this change that I know is for the best. I am in a transformation.

I feel like I am in a cocoon.

When will I come out of this?

Pathway to happiness

Pathway to happiness

Is there a pathway to happiness?

Sure there's a pathway to happiness. When you came into this earth, where you eternally happy? Of course you were. You had no knowledge of right or wrong. You grew and you started to mock those around you and that is when unhappiness came into your life. We tend to mock everyone around us even if we do not realize it. We need to be us and see what we like and what makes us happy. Just because you think that other person is happy, they most likely aren't. Then you mock someone that appears to be happy and you are unhappy.

Rule of thumb, Be YOURSELF!!

If you decide to do what someone else wants you to be, that will not make you happy. Then you will feel that someone has control over you and you will want to be free. Remember when we came into this earth, we came alone and when we leave, we leave alone. Therefore, be YOU and do not be someone that is NOT you. Who cares if they get more attention. If you want attention, go out to the busiest street in your city, get dressed very nice (Or take off your clothes) and start dancing, trust me... YOU WILL get attention.

The true pathway to happiness is within you. It does not exist in the out side. Once you make emends with your demons that you have inside and you are you and a better you, than you can be truly happy and make the world outside of you happy. You will then feel whole and content. This took me a long time to realize. This took me a long time to understand. How can making emends with your demons, make you a better person?

This is simple.

You will be ultimately happy. You will live fearlessly, non-judgemental and free of all guilt.. WOW, this is a way to live and love isn't it?

The pathway is truly within you.. No where else, so stop searching on the outside. Begin with you and you will see that everything will come together for you. You then will taste and experience the true pathway of happiness!!

Footprints on Your Heart

Footprints on Your Heart

This is one that my beautiful friend had asked me to write about.

Footprints are tattoos that are marked forever on ones heart and soul. Not all footprints may be pleasure but they do create a deep ingrain in your life.

Whether or not you agree or disagree you will expereince something deep within you and it will either hurt or become joy in your life.

My heart is filled with footprints. Some are Precious, some are unliked, and some are remembrances of the past.

We all learn from our past events. Even if you think that the footprints in your life are not desirable, know that you will not make the same error and in the future it will be less painless then the pain you just expereinced in your life. Footprints are created because YOU allowed them to happen in your life. Now that the footprints were made and imprinted within you, you have a memory of something that you will not want to return too. Therefore you must look back at it and make peace with it so that you can become happy with yourself and everyone around you. I must admit this is the hardest part in life, because you must face the faults within yourself.

Look back at your footprints and know that since you have seen the prints, it is in the past. It is something that has been already created. If it is a bad footprint, know that the hard part is over and you must make amends and let go.

If the footprint is precious, hold on to the moment and be grateful as you know it is something that will be forever cherished.

If it is a footprint of remembrance know that you have remembered, it is there when you need a reminder and let go.

We as humans, make everything so difficult when there is always s solution to all problems whether we like the solution or not. But know always that the footprint that was created was with your creation and you must either love it or make ammends with it. Hatred gets you nowhere. Regardless how you look at it, because down the road, there will be regrets.

Footprints are beautiful, so ammend the bad ones and become a happy person

~This is dedicated to Kelli~

A simple touch

A simple touch

A simple touch from you would be the best thing I could have at this moment. I need you so bad. It is like fire burning within me that I am not able to put out. I feel my body yearning for your touch. My body quivers just of the thought of having one touch of yours.

I would be content at this moment just to hear your voice and have my hands act for you and touch myself. Think you are here with me in the same room, touching me.

Please let me hear your voice. let me act for you. Since I do not have you hear with me, I want to listen to your manly sweet voice. I want to masturbate with you on the phone. I want to touch my breasts while you say dirty little things to me on the phone. I want to lick my lips. I want to touch my pussy. I want to take my vibrator and let it touch my clit, while you tell me its your dick against me. I want to insert the vibrator into my pussy and feel the vibrations while you tell me it is your dick making me feel like a woman. I want you to tell me all the dirty little things that you want to do to me so I can imagine you fucking me and touching me.

I want to feel myself cum with the thought of the toy being you. I want to feel like the woman you would make me feel as I make myself yours, in my bedroom, on my bed, with your voice. I want you so bad that I want to feel myself cum. I want to imagine the toy being you. I want to imagine my bed be yours. I want to imagine you in between my legs. Your head of your cock all over me, this is what I will imagine as the toy vibrates my body. I want it to be you.

This will make me truly happy for the moment until I have you with me to make me feel this way. I will enjoy any ounce of you I can get.

Remember always, that I love you!!

Dreams DO come true

Dreams DO come true

Be determined!

Be determined!

When I was young, I had to kiss many frogs before I came to realize the wrong decisions I have made in life. I had to be a stronger person and be extra picky on what I wanted in life. Not only for myself but for the 5 Angels that I have with me. I have come a long way.

A lot of people tell me that they cannot believe that I could go so far in life with 5 children, No husband, and I keep up with myself. Well, If don't, who will?

You know my son was sick. I took him to his doctor (Which I think he has the hots for me.. LOL) . He compliments me every time I go see him. He keeps me in the room asking me if there is anything else he could answer or if my other kids had any symptoms that he could help with.. LOL Anyway, He tells me every time he sees me, (Which is almost once a week with a different kid) that he forgets that I have 5 children. He says that he knows by the appearance of the mothers that walk in. They usually have sweats on, no make up, and always have their hair up and usually not brushed. He says that it is nice to see a woman take care of themselves and their children. He says it tells a lot of a woman. Oh, and he also mention how young I look and that he would have never known that my older son (Which is taller than me) was my son. He made me feel very good.

It made me realize that, Wow.... Lancelot will see that he will have a woman that takes care of herself, children and him. Because surely if his wife takes care of herself she takes care of her men and children right? It made me realize how valuable I am. To know that I am a girl that can take care of everything around her and responsible too.. This makes me feel very good.

This takes me to Dreams that DO come true and be determined.

I have kissed frogs in my past. I have become a better person from my past errors. From a Bud, i have blossomed and I will be this flower standing straight, higher than all others because I know that I will grow faster and farther than I have ever imagined. I will succeed. I will be powerful (Even if its in my own world, i will be happy with that), I will be what I am determined to be.

I will then reunite with Lancelot and I will be complete. I am destined to have him. I know I will have him. they say the third is a charm right? But what if someone had a third and it wasn't the charm? Lets say the third was a break..

........Wait............

.........Think about this...........

It means that you have made some wrong decisions. Write down in each of your frogs the faults and failure of both parties. Then Let the ego part of the list go, I mean don't get offended with what you wrote. The reason why I say this is because we start to make excuses of our errors and what we have become of ourselves. Take responsibility and know that this is a learning experience. You never made an error, you are still learning in your path. So, take that list and don't make the same mistakes.. Look at this list and decide to be better than the list. Burn the list and say a small "Determination speech" as in, "I am better than this, I will have my dreams come true. I only allow good to come and flow through me. So be it" Then know that you will release the errors.

When you find yourself repeating that error in your life, than remember the paper you burnt. Then change your ways..

Know that YOU CAN DO IT!!

Remember GET OVER IT, you are only hurting yourself. Once you GET OVER your hurt, you will be able to move on in life and you will find that Dream Guy/Girl in your life.. Stomp on hurt and hate and start loving yourself!!

Waiting for you

Waiting for you

I wait for you here patiently.

I start to think what you may be doing at this moment. If you are working, home sick, shopping or watching a movie?

I sit here, listening to my children run, laugh, yell, or playing. I at times think that my life is just a re-run on TV as it is the same thing everyday. I make breakfast,work, Gym, work again, Blog, Cook, clean, Yell at the kids, and work again. I never find time for me and if I do, it is usually hiding in the closet for a quick phone call (So the kids wont find me and want something, it happens too often when on the phone), I take a quick drive to the grocery store, or simply wait until their bedtime.

I am sure you have more free time than I do. I wonder what you like to do when you are alone?

I wonder often with my chaotic life, When am I going to have time to meet you, see you or be with you? I know that I will make the time. I still wait here patiently for you.

I wonder if you cook? Do you like take out more than eating in?

My friends call me the Betty Crocker mom. I am not sure when and how I find the time. I am not a fast food girl, unless I am out with clients and do not have time to eat. But, I like my family to eat right and have the hot home made cooking daily. Everyone that eats from what I prepare, loves what I eat. My question is, will you? What if you don't like my food?

Don't worry, I will learn to cook what you like :)

I wait patiently here for you. Preparing myself for our great love.

All I know is that I will be here waiting for you. This is the only truth I know!!

You are a Dad

You are a Dad

This morning I woke up, I think around 4Am. I couldn't fall back to sleep. So I started to meditate. I didn't want to imagine anything. I am trying to master my meditation skills.. LOL (So I try)

When I cleared my mind, an image came to me. I'm not sure what it was at first, but it became so clear. I was pregnant (I know, baby #6). I was at a gym, not familiar with the surroundings. I was going to start off on the treadmill and I started to have pains. i held onto the machine. I started to bend over. I was touching my stomach. I was not ready to have the baby yet. I remember thinking, it is too early. Then I started to yell for help. Everyone rushed over to help me as they seen I was pregnant and bending over. Once they came to me, my water broke. I tried to call you on your cell but you would not answer. You must have been busy working. I had asked the personnel at the gym to call your place of work. The personnel called your place of work. I seen someone at your work called for you to get the phone as the personnel at the gym told the young lady it was urgent and they needed you on the phone. The young lady seen you were busy and she gently told you that you had an emergency phone call. You proceeded to the phone and spoke to the lady at the gym. You were in a panic, but trying to keep your calm, you told the place where you work that you needed to leave. You dropped everything to come to me. I was worried about your safety (Driving to the hospital) as I knew this being your first child you would worry.

I was worried about the children. No one would be home when they come home from school. You were so sweet to call your mother and ask her to attend to the children.

When you arrived, everything happened so fast, I delivered a sweet baby boy. Your face showed the excitement and happiness of your new son.

Your family came quickly to the hospital and they were so happy to see their new addition to the family.

The vision was so clear and so fast. I tried to hold on to it.

I wonder if this is really how it will happen. I wonder if this will be true.

Do you have visions? What do you dream? Did you have the same vision as I?

I can only wonder. If we do have this sweet child, how happy will you be??

You make me feel alive

You make me feel alive

Every time I think about you, you make me feel alive.

I feel like I have been falling and have no end to finally fall. When I think about you, I grow wings and start to fly. I have so much love to give you. So much that it makes me sad that I cannot give it to you now. I want you in my life so that I can release some of this love over flowing within me. It is true that I love you. You are the only one..

When I think about you, it usually is at night. This is when my house is calm. Everyone is sleeping and I can imagine us together.

I must admit, I have been feeling down lately and I feel like the world is against me at times. I start to think of you and my world changes. It makes my night a lot better. I start to visualize us until I fall asleep. Sometimes I end up dreaming with you, sometimes I don't. I would love to dream with you every night. But, i know that I need to let your spirit relax at times. I cannot be selfish with you.

You make me feel alive when I start to talk to you at night. I talk to you as if you were here. I wonder if you hear me?

I just wanted to let you know that you make me feel alive. You keep me going because I have soemthing to look forward too and that is YOU!

I miss you so much!

I miss you so much!

I know the last thing you want for me is to be sad.

When you left my side in our past life, It hurt so much that I continue to carry on this sadness. I feel deceived from love. I feel that something so valuable was taken from me. Even though we re-united in the spirit world and we both came into this life and promised to find each other, I feel sad because I had forgotten about our promise. I forgot that I was to find you and took on frogs in my life. I feel like I have failed you. I feel that if you do the same, I cannot blame you.

I can say that I am now on the right track. I found myself and have done an inner cleansing. Something not a lot of people will do. I have faced my fears, my guilt, my shame. My ego comes back and tries to laugh in my face now and then. What I do is, call upon Archangel Micheal and ask him to help. He does. He comes and takes ego away. I thank him everyday for helping me get through this life as it is not easy. I know I chose this life. I know that we both chose our lives together and we both agreed to our challenges. But, I miss you so badly. My only wish is to have you with me. Tears come upon my eyes when I write this because I don't know what else to do. I miss you.

I want to have you within my arms. I want you to hold me like a child and calm me from all this crying, hurt, and lonliness. I want you to rub my back like you used too. I want you to kiss my head like you used too. I want you to sing to me. I want to feel like nothing can hurt me bacause I am with you and NOTHING can harm me .

I have 5 angels now. I know that you know this. They also need us to make them into great angels. I need you to help me prepare them for the next level. I promised to help them and they came into this earth as my children. Our children. You were OK with them being our children. You wanted to help them to succeed onto the next level. You agreed. I had them with the frogs in my life. I know I should have waited until I found you but time was running out and I was lost at the time and forgot about you. I am embarrassed to admit this, but I have to get this out in the open. I feel like I have failed. But, now I know who I am and it is not too late, unless you have changed your mind.

I miss you so much and desire to be with you soon. I know that we will. I trust you. You have always saved me in the past and I know that you will do the same in this lifetime. I love you Lancelot and always will!

~Your dearest, Me~

P.S I LOVE YOU!!

Can you meet me halfway?

Can you meet me halfway?

Everyday I think about you. I miss you every day.

Can you meet me halfway?

Can we meet at a bridge where the water runs. Where nature is so beautiful that all we can admire each other in such beauty around us. I want to get lost in your eyes. I want your lips to touch mine and show me what love it really like. I want your touch to take over my body so that when my body feels the electricity of your touch it will make me tremble.

Can you meet me halfway?

Right on the borderline of some state that we have never been to. This way we will have the excitement of not knowing where we are. What to do. Where to go. We can take each others hands and just walk. Walk into nowhere and trust that our angels will guide us to an endless love just like it should be. We will have all the time in the world to talk and get to know each other more. Know what our feelings are like. Know that our future will hold as much love as we both deserve.

Can you meet me halfway?

I want you so badly, this is my only wish. Where do you want to meet? Where do you want to go?

Would you travel around the world for me?

Would you travel around the universe for me?

Would you travel around the galaxy for me?

I want you so badly, this is my ONLY wish!

I feel exhausted without you, I need you to fuel me!!

I feel Helpless

I feel Helpless

I feel so hopeless. I feel that the world has a love/hate relationship with me.

It seems like when I feel like I am getting somewhere everything comes down on me like a ton of bricks and refuses to let me get up and walk. I get angry, tired, alone,violent, and helpless. I can't change my mind at the moment. I feel like everything is spinning around me. Ego laughs in my fucking face. It tells me that I am worthless and I will never live up to anything. It tells me that I need to feel defeated.

I feel helpless. I feel alone.

Where is the way out? I want to run, I want to get out!! Why cant I see anything?

I see shadows, I hear evil laughter, I am alone. Completely alone.

I scream, can anyone hear me? I cry and only feel tears showering my face. CAN ANYONE FUCKING HEAR ME???

I feel alone, alone, alone... Help me...

I am determined... I WILL get out of this! I know I can. Fuck ego. Fuck hate. Fuck loneliness..

I am determined to change the world. I cannot and refuse to keep feeling this way. Its fucking dark in here..I am walking, I cant see, but I know that I will get out. I bump into walls, I trip on the hard rocks in my way, But I am determined!! I will get out!! I will survive. I am a survivor!! I will triumph... There is something bigger and better for me when I get out, I just know it. I know that there will only be success at the end.

I will survive. I will win.. I know I will.

Death

Death

Death is an imminent thing. I used to fear death. It is something that needs not to be feared. It is actually the beginning of something new. It used to freak me out. I can say that I cannot wait until I finish my journey here so that I can begin my new beginning. People would probably say this sounds weird and not normal. If you start to look into your inner self, you will find that death is a beautiful thing.

Death in the mundane world is not all bad. Death of situations are a new beginning of something great. My death in the mundane world of situations, are of the Frogs I had in my life and the relationships. It all died so that a new beginning could be created. Death of friendships needed to happen to create a new beginning, better friendships. Death of material needed to occur to create a new beginning, better security or materials.

Usually the death of something is to create a new beginning. Majority of the deaths are for something greater and better. I know that my new beginning in this mundane world will have something greater than i have ever expected. I have created my new beginning to only have love, trust and endless happiness. I am sure that I have created something Big and it will turn out better than I have created. I trust that my life will result into something that I will have endless bliss.

Death is never in the negative as we portray it. Death has to occur to bring on bigger and better things. Even though we never see it this way because we are selfish and look at what we want in the moment, you must admit, things happen for the best. Even with an individual passing, we need to be happy for them as they left living hell to move onto something better that has no sorrows, hatred, nor ego. It hurts because we do not have that loved one with us, but know that they are in a happier place than we are. Why want them to suffer in this insane earth space reality?

Have you ever heard of "The course in Miracles"? You need to either read it or get the audio CD. It will help clarify this insane mundane world. It will help you as a person to clarify all your questions.

~Peace, Light and Love for all~

My lips

My lips

These are my lips. They are for you. For you to enjoy however you want too. I want you to love them as I know you will!

I want you to bite them when you are excited. I want you to enjoy them and place them anywhere on your body. I will submit myself to you! I will surrender myself completely to you. I want to be your slave. The one that will allow you to love her and have fun with her. I want to be the one to turn you into something that is wilder than anything ever imagine. I want to convert you into something you thought you would never do nor be in this lifetime. I want you to combine your mind with mine, so you can see what you can be. You will enjoy how wild I can make you and how you will enjoy the ride.

My lips will be addicting to you. They will be the cocaine, adrenaline, and anxiety you desire. You will want to surrender to them. They will make you feel how you need to feel.

My lips will also nurture you. They will make you feel loved. They will make you feel safe.

My lips are all Yours!!

I feel loneliness in my room

I feel loneliness in my room

When I walk into my room, regardless why I am in there. I think about you. I feel lonely. I feel deserted. I feel abandoned without you.

I want your warm body next to mine. I want to know that I have you always. Regardless where you may be. I want to feel whole, complete, and know you will be here with me.

When I lay in my bed at night, I lay and close my eyes. I'm compelled to think about you. This makes me feel close to you. I begin to touch myself. My hands are your hands. Caressing my body. Touching my breasts. Touching my pussy. Thinking you are the one touching me. I begin to touch myself. I imagine looking into your eyes. Showing you how your pleasuring touch makes me feel. I imagine your lips. I imagine how they feel on my soft warm skin. I imagine how they glide across my breasts, while your touch on my pussy has me feeling bumps all over my body. My little hairs on my body stand straight up with joy. My mouth opens. Gliding my tongue over my lips while I am feeling horny.

When my body trembles with excitement, I open my eyes and realize you are not there. You are not the one touching me. I feel so lonely without you. Where are you and when will you be here?

Sorry, Lancelot, I know when you will be here. Silly me. It will be soon. I know it, I feel it. I need patience. But until then I will continue to feel lonely in my room.

This world will NOT bring me down!

This world will NOT bring me down!

I know that it has taken a little more than what we intended, but we both chose the life we are living. I am glad that it is almost time to re-unite. I am glad that I will finally be in your arms once again. I can feel it. I know that it is only several months away. I am excited but at the same time, I am nervous. I feel like a high school girl waiting for that one guy to talk to me in the hallway. The one I want to notice me so bad. The one that looks so hot in my eyes. The one that stole my heart without knowing. The one that I see entering the school building hoping he will drop his pencil or book and I would pick it up and he will notice me, just like in the movies.

I feel down at times. I guess it is normal. I feel like this damn world wants me to fail and never meet you. I am determined. I am determined to finally be with you. I promise you I will not let this world bring me down. You and I made a promise and I do not want to be the one to let you down. I will stand straight and not let anything nor anyone get in my way. This world tried in so many ways to get me down, and I refuse!!

This world tries to bring me down. I refuse. I know that I am better then what the world tries to make me believe. I know that you and I made a promise before we entered in this world. We promised that we would join and become one.

I cannot deny that I feel like I am depressed and I feel no strength. Everyone that knows me, tells me that I am strong. They admire me for being who I am. Being able to be a mother, a hard worker and a level head. Man, It is hard. This world looks at me and tries to stop me. I am not sure if I am cursed or what, but it seems like I never feel 100% happy. I can say that I am 95% there. The only piece that is missing is you!!

Everyone tells me I am smart, Witty, Beautiful, sexy and have everything going for me.. Why don't I feel it? Why do I feel like I am so lonely and that I need to demise from this world. I feel so small.

When I think of you, I feel alive and have hope! I promise that I will NOT let this world bring me down.

Vacation

Vacation

 

I have gone to different exotic places in my life, but every time I have visited, it was alone. This 2010, I want to enjoy mother earth with you. I want to travel with you and enjoy what life has to offer. I want you too see the world with me. I want you to enjoy the moments and memories we make for each other. I want to make every place we visit a memorable one. We can name the destinations together and laugh at our silly names. The first one, we can name "Sex on the Beach" and blame it on the drink.. LOL We don't need to tell anyone the truth.. :~p

I want to enjoy life with you, even if it is in my backyard in the tree house.. :)

I want to create memories. I want to create wild ones to the most craziest ones. I want us to laugh, cry and be wild together. I want to enjoy every second I have with you.

I know that you are very busy, that is OK. I will respect your time. I will be the one thinking about all the different things we can enjoy. We can blend our thoughts and make them a reality. We can vacation in our blended thoughts any time we want too. We can vacation and be wild in all ways in our blended thoughts. I am sure we will have some crazy fun. You know my mind is wild and endless. I know yours can be wild and conservative. I will corrupt your mind and make it what it can be.

Lets vacation together, even if we make a tent and be in nature. Oh, I can think of some great fun with you in nature. :)

Past lives

Past lives

~Past lives~

I have mentioned in this blog several times that I am in search of my soul mate. My lost love.

When someone is in search of something they know what they want. They know a feeling they will feel when they encounter what they are looking for. They believe so much that it will come, that it is destined for it to come.

I am amazed on how so many people would read a blog and decide that they are the soul mate of the writer. They start to say things that in their minds think the writer will come out and say, "OK, you are it". It does not happen this way. I am sure in their minds they feel something in their hearts that they honestly believe they may be this person. They will even in their hearts say that they are the person that the writer says they want. Then the person reading the blog will say in their hearts, Oh I can become that person. In reality it is not if you can "Become" that person, you MUST be that person. If you are not that person, then don't waste your time or theirs.

Everyone in this life wants love, right? Then stay true to your feelings. Don't say you will become something when you MUST be that person already. What if you realize down the road that you don't like the person you have become. You just altered your lifestyle for a person and not for yourself. If you like someone, you must be 100% compatible. Remember you don't want to fail in love. There is someone else out there for you and that person will be BETTER than the person you first liked so much!

Don't settle. I cannot stress this enough!!

I see so many posts in so many blogs of people writing things that sound so stupid, trying to make people believe that they are the ones. Remember the most silent ones are more true to their feelings than the loudest to be heard. Trust your instincts.

I know that I at times fail mine. I want something so bad that I try to make myself believe something that I know deep down does not exist. I have stopped this. I WILL be true to me, no one else but me.

I deserve to be happy and so do you!

When it comes to Past lives, take the time and find out who you really were. Don't assume. Remember what assume does to you..

I had a hunch and knew that I may have been a person that was in another country. I seen the walls. I seen the clothes, I seen Myself. I have been told who I was.. I didn't even know..But it all came together of the little I knew and what i saw. I had compared a lot of dreams, coincidences and expereinces in my life that I know for a fact now that I was her. I was that person in the past. I studied up on my past life.  It helped to know who I really am and how I need to better myself. Do the same. If you don't believe in past lives, that's OK. But please, DO NOT judge or criticize those that do!

~Be Blessed~

 

He's just not into you

He’s just not into you