I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk this world alone. I am going through changes in my life. I know it is for the best. I feel alone.

I feel like I am walking a path in darkness. I see no light. All I know is that I am walking a path to an endless destination. I don't even care where I end up. I don'teven care if I make it thru this endless path I walk. I walk this path alone. No thoughts cross my mind. I just feel tears running down my cheeks. I feel frustrated for no reason. I still walk this path of nowhere. I still feel alone.

I am going through changes.

Why do i feel exhausted? Why do I feel pain from nowhere? Why am I feeling hopeless? Why do I feel this way?

Frustrations run through my veins. Sadness over takes my body and is in control. I feel like I deserve to be alone. I deserve to feel pain. My head, arms, chest, legs feel numb. Do I even care? What will happen if I disappear tomorrow?? Will anyone give a damn??

I hope I make this long journey of nowhere because I am not sure what I am going to do.

I feel like everything in my life is a lie. Nothing is meant for me. Nothing is able to make me happy because I feel like there is no hope out there for me. I feel that no one gives a damn. My heart is numb. Will it love again?

No one understands what I am going through. No one can help me. No one knows what I am going through.

I am supposed to be strong. I am supposed to be this hero, and I cannot even breath. I ran out of air. I try to hold my pain. I try to hold my tears. I try to be keep myself up. I have been walking for hours, it seems like days. I don't see the path and I don't even care. I feel cold. I feel nothing. I feel nothing in my heart. I feel nothing in my body. I should be buried. I should be nowhere.. Why am I even here?

I am going through this change that I know is for the best. I am in a transformation.

I feel like I am in a cocoon.

When will I come out of this?