I miss you so much!

I miss you so much!

I know the last thing you want for me is to be sad.

When you left my side in our past life, It hurt so much that I continue to carry on this sadness. I feel deceived from love. I feel that something so valuable was taken from me. Even though we re-united in the spirit world and we both came into this life and promised to find each other, I feel sad because I had forgotten about our promise. I forgot that I was to find you and took on frogs in my life. I feel like I have failed you. I feel that if you do the same, I cannot blame you.

I can say that I am now on the right track. I found myself and have done an inner cleansing. Something not a lot of people will do. I have faced my fears, my guilt, my shame. My ego comes back and tries to laugh in my face now and then. What I do is, call upon Archangel Micheal and ask him to help. He does. He comes and takes ego away. I thank him everyday for helping me get through this life as it is not easy. I know I chose this life. I know that we both chose our lives together and we both agreed to our challenges. But, I miss you so badly. My only wish is to have you with me. Tears come upon my eyes when I write this because I don't know what else to do. I miss you.

I want to have you within my arms. I want you to hold me like a child and calm me from all this crying, hurt, and lonliness. I want you to rub my back like you used too. I want you to kiss my head like you used too. I want you to sing to me. I want to feel like nothing can hurt me bacause I am with you and NOTHING can harm me .

I have 5 angels now. I know that you know this. They also need us to make them into great angels. I need you to help me prepare them for the next level. I promised to help them and they came into this earth as my children. Our children. You were OK with them being our children. You wanted to help them to succeed onto the next level. You agreed. I had them with the frogs in my life. I know I should have waited until I found you but time was running out and I was lost at the time and forgot about you. I am embarrassed to admit this, but I have to get this out in the open. I feel like I have failed. But, now I know who I am and it is not too late, unless you have changed your mind.

I miss you so much and desire to be with you soon. I know that we will. I trust you. You have always saved me in the past and I know that you will do the same in this lifetime. I love you Lancelot and always will!

~Your dearest, Me~

P.S I LOVE YOU!!