I know that it has taken a little more than what we intended, but we both chose the life we are living. I am glad that it is almost time to re-unite. I am glad that I will finally be in your arms once again. I can feel it. I know that it is only several months away. I am excited but at the same time, I am nervous. I feel like a high school girl waiting for that one guy to talk to me in the hallway. The one I want to notice me so bad. The one that looks so hot in my eyes. The one that stole my heart without knowing. The one that I see entering the school building hoping he will drop his pencil or book and I would pick it up and he will notice me, just like in the movies.
I feel down at times. I guess it is normal. I feel like this damn world wants me to fail and never meet you. I am determined. I am determined to finally be with you. I promise you I will not let this world bring me down. You and I made a promise and I do not want to be the one to let you down. I will stand straight and not let anything nor anyone get in my way. This world tried in so many ways to get me down, and I refuse!!
This world tries to bring me down. I refuse. I know that I am better then what the world tries to make me believe. I know that you and I made a promise before we entered in this world. We promised that we would join and become one.
I cannot deny that I feel like I am depressed and I feel no strength. Everyone that knows me, tells me that I am strong. They admire me for being who I am. Being able to be a mother, a hard worker and a level head. Man, It is hard. This world looks at me and tries to stop me. I am not sure if I am cursed or what, but it seems like I never feel 100% happy. I can say that I am 95% there. The only piece that is missing is you!!
Everyone tells me I am smart, Witty, Beautiful, sexy and have everything going for me.. Why don't I feel it? Why do I feel like I am so lonely and that I need to demise from this world. I feel so small.
When I think of you, I feel alive and have hope! I promise that I will NOT let this world bring me down.
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