I walked into the club alone, I was awaiting on my friends as they were arriving with their dates.
Listening to Pop music being played, I just moved my body into the motion of the music standing in one place.
Last night, I had gone into a club. It was really nice. One not attended by me in the past.
There were people everywhere. I proceeded to the bar to order a drink. I ordered my drink and stood in a corner waiting for my friends to show. I seen some ladies that were also standing where I am. (I have promised myself to be more bold and less bashful) I started conversations with the two ladies.
I left their side onto the dance floor and started to dance by myself as they put on a song that I liked. I seen the two girls that I spoke too, enter the dance floor. We all danced in a circle together. It was fun. We giggled and commented on the songs, etc..
I had multiple men come up to me, while I danced.
I then stood on the sidelines for a second.. I wanted to rest before dancing to another song that I liked.
This One guy that would not leave my side, started to talk. He was an older gentleman. He started to buy me drinks. Asked me personal questions. I did not want him by my side. I didn't want to be rude. I knew my friends were coming and I knew that would be my escape. He wanted to dance and I told him that I didn't dance to the particular music that was being played. When I mentioned to him that I had 5 kids, he could not let that go. He said that he could not believe that I had 5 kids. Why did I have 5 kids? What type of question is this? I told him that I was very happy to have my children and am extremely independent. I love my children. Then he could not stop starring into my eyes. He kept telling me how beautiful I was and how young I look. He said that he could not believe that a pretty face like mine was without a husband.
There was a guy that was nearby. He could tell that I didn't want to talk to this guy. He kept looking my way, and honestly... I gave him the face of "Help". He then giggled and came my way. The older guy seemed to be jealous (Mind you, over property that is not his). He didn't like the fact that this other guy started to talk to me. My advantage of him (the older guy) not knowing another language and I do. The guy asked me to dance and I accepted. I smiled at the older guy and had gone and danced.
I danced a lot.. I love to dance. This is a way I like to express myself and feel free. Feel good about me.
Finally, while dancing, My friends had come. They showed up 55 minutes later than expected. I was glad to have finally seen them. My girlfriend hugged me from behind, and I thanked the guy for dancing with me and I proceeded to dance with my girlfriend.
To my surprise, they had brought an extra friend for me to mingle with. I danced three song with him and he noticed that I was not too into him. I only have eyes for you. Even though he is HOT, I cannot play if its not with you. It sounds stupid, I know. My friends think I am waisting my time. They say that if you cant come out and see me, that you are only playing with me. I beg to differ. I know that you want me as much as I want you. I know that in your heart, you think of me.
Will you come and rescue me is the question. If so, when?
The extra friend that they brought to mingle with me, left my side. (Who could blame him, he went for fun right?)
I was never alone as I had guys left and right ask me to dance and bought drinks for me.
Every time I danced, I only thought of you. I was thinking how great it would be to have you by my side. Enjoying this moment with me. Enjoying me dancing all over you. Enjoying the moments that I would sway the wrong way and just plain ole' laugh.
I must admit that the attention what quite overwhelming. While seeing my friends with their dates. They danced, kissed, touched... I so wished it were me. Even though I was having fun, my heart was hurting because I felt alone. Alone without having you with me. Without having the one I wanted by my side with me.
Why is it, that the guy, the girl wants feels like he does not correspond to her the way she desires.
Honestly, I feel lonely. Not wanted by you. My desires are not responded. My call for you go unanswered.
A girl needs more than just a simple text, Internet chat or even a phone call.
The energy holds me in place. The energy of you is what keeps me alive. I just wonder how much longer?
Only God knows. Only should the Universe sees it fit, I will finally be with you!
Before I left the club, I walked out with my friends and their dates. I was not sure where their other friend was that they had brought to mingle with me. My one girlfriend asked me to drive her to her car that was not parked at the club. I agreed. She was waiting for the other girl friends car to come out of VIP so she could grab her purse. I had parked my car at another VIP lot.I told her I would wait in the car being that is was 14 degrees outside. I started to walk up to my car. I started the car and waited for her and her date. My car was warming up.
They finally found me as I had placed my high beams on and off to signal where I was. They drove up in my friends BMW. I lowered my window to tell my goodbye's to my friend. All of them cramped in her car, my friend and her date came out of the car. The guy they took to mingle with me, got out of the car and proceeded to my car. He said that he was sorry for not dancing the entire night with me. Then he kissed me on the lips. I was quite surprised as it was unexpected. I held back a little. He felt it. He then kissed me again and I once more held back.
My friends were surprised that I didn't pursue someone as HOT as him. But how could I?? My heart is somewhere else...
What do you think? Should I start a new life without you? I don't want too.. My heart tells me and feels something else.
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