Kiss goodbye to you Frog

Kiss goodbye to you Frog

I kissed you goodbye, but you are determined to hold on, not let go. I kissed you goodbye for a reason. There was no hate when I did it. I felt bad that I let you go. But, I had to do it. This was not meant for us. Better things, better people will come into our lives. They will come into our reality because it is destined. It is written. We need to let go so that we can make things better for both of us. Things will go better. You will have a better life. I asked my angels to help you with this. Your angels will carry you to a better life. Just Trust.

I keep on trying to make things better for you. You refuse to let go. Maybe I babied you too much because I felt guilty. Guilty because I had created a monster for both of us. Rushing into us. Rushing and trying to cover a past wound from my first frog to make me feel better. I must admit, I was very selfish and drew you into something that was not fair. My emotional baggage, my hurt, my pain. I am a loser. I admit this.

I wanted this to be easy for you. You converted your love to revenge and hatred. You had all the right too. I am a loser. I am dirt. I am nothing.

You tried to destroy me and bravo, you did. I took you to see your parents all on my expense overseas. I gave you money every month. You took advantage of me. You took every penny I had in my account and left. You left me with the little debt I had and 5 kids. You didn't care if they had anything to eat. You didn't care if they were OK. You were ugly about this all.

You told me that I should have thought twice before leaving you. How could you??. We have children together. You stole all of my money. I worked hard for it, you bastard. I am left begging people for money. I was left trying to keep a home for my kids.

We ate rice everyday because of YOU!! You ate with my money and you ate very well. You dined your new girlfriends, we were left hungry. You bought yourself new clothes and paid off your car. I was left trying to take out old clothes to clothe my kids. How could you. You did it out of anger. I cried every f#&** night, not knowing what to do or where to turn.

But, you know what.... I DID IT, I MADE IT. I am another person.

I have, you still are trying. I love, you are still looking. I'm strong, you are weak.

I never once desired bad for you, through all this turmoil and deceit, I only asked my angels to amend your heart, because I knew deep down through all the anguish and not knowing where to turn this was not YOU. You were hurt and I was the loser to cause it.

I only hope that you will not do what I did to you to someone else.