Prisoner within me

I am a prisinor within my own self. I feel trapped not able to get out. I feel like I cannot scream, because if I do, no one will hear me.

I hear the rain fall outside and I want to run out and scream. Scream with no ending. I will be drenched and will not care if it is cold outside. What is this life for? Why am I here? Why do I want to live?

Do you hear me? Does anyone care? I hurt. My pain is huge, it touches my bone and I shiver. I cannot control myself. I want to die..

Why am I here. Who cares anymore.

I feel like running out into my backyard, into the woods and run with no destination. Run until I cannot find anything. My feet will hurt, get cut, scrapped. I wont care. I cant get this pain out of my body. Its unbearable. I cant stand it anymore.

I hear my own screams. No one there to help. My face hurts as I have cried too much. I feel numb from all the crying. My body is week from walking. My feet hurt from the cuts of the branches and rocks on the ground.

I want to end this pain. Why do I hurt so bad? Why cant I get this pain out of my heart, my veins, my flesh?

Why? Why? Why? WHY??

Can anyone hear my cries? Why don't I feel anyone coming to my rescue? Why cant I feel arms around my body to sooth me?

Please, Please, Please, anyone..... Hear me... Hear my cries...

I am shivering, not because it is cold, because I cant feel you. I cant find you. I hurt........

Life is so hard without you. I need you to pick up my pieces. I need you to heal the hurt in my heart. I ache. You are nowhere to be found. I feel filthy. I feel miserable. I feel like a soulless person. I have no control over me.

I am a prisoner within me.