Lonely life

Have you ever watched a movie and you could feel a strong connection with it. The movie leaves you dumbfounded and you feel butterflies and a deep burning sensation that you just cannot take out of your stomach? Then you think about the movie all darn day and you find yourself just day dreaming of the movie and you play yourself as the main character?

Well, I had one of these moments. At the end you find yourselves with tears in your eyes, asking the same ole darn question of "WHEN"?

Then you feel alone and sometimes lost in your own journey. I sometimes look outside the window, just asking the same question to the Universe and just hope or wish to hear an answer in return of my favor. Of course I get an inner feeling or sensation. I am so impatient at times. This is my downfall. I need patience I know. Its been so long.. It has been a year since my last frog. This time around, i know that i am determined however, I feel like the right person will never come. The one I know that will be a perfect fit seems to disappear and it makes me wonder if it is? I am not sure why I feel this way. Insecurities maybe? But when I think about it, its like not normal. Not normal because the average relationship keeps in touch some way somehow. You might say, yeah but busy life gets in the way. Its funny because I know I have a hectic and busy life. But I find at least a minute of my time to reach out and show my love. I feel as if I am just another number of so many.

It hurts, but then I start to realize that the distance is a factor. The distance plays a big role. So, I cannot expect too much. I just wish men would have a little more consideration to womans feelings. Dont lead someone on and then just disappear. This is a big heart stommper on us girls. Maybe this is one of the causes that fail in a relationship. NO COMMUNICATION. I cannot stress this enough. Maybe I am just weird. Maybe I should be alone all of my lonesome life..

This is my lonley life.