Is this just a dream?

Is this just a dream?

Is this feeling just a dream or is it reality?

I mean, I know that I feel you. I hear you at times. I think about you. We talk at times, but am I imagining this or is this real?

I feel at a loss at times. I feel that this may be a dream or a feeling of fantasy that I am making up in my head.

I want this to be real. I want you to be real. I want you with me.

I cant take this anymore. I feel like I am going crazy within my own mind. I feel like my feelings are a roller coaster. Maybe I need to let go. Get myself into order and start anew? But the question is, "Can I??"

I feel your energy so strong. I feel you. But, I don't know you. I only know you as a caring person. Someone that will stand by me when I need you. But, why is it that when I REALLY need you , you are not there?? This is why I question myself as to whether you are a dream or a fantasy. Something i have created in my own mind.

I cannot lie to you, I feel like giving up. I feel like I am chasing a ghost that will not enter in my life. I feel lost. I feel hopeless.

Sometimes I wonder if I am only destined to be alone? Destined to unhappiness.

I know that I was a wonderful person in my past life. One that was caring and loving. One that carried over to this life what I had in the past. However, the only regret was what I had done to you in the past life. Now that I have found you, you seem uninterested. Not Entertained by me. I assume this is the price I must pay from the past life. I am not sure. But, it hurts in this life. I cannot continue with this pain, it is too great for me to handle. Too much of a burden. I believe that this will make me a stronger person.

Will you activate the reality button for me and make my questions go away?

I am not sure if you are ready for that. I am a storm ready to burst. Ready to make myself completely yours.

I know that men and woman are wired differently.

I know that men have more patience then women.

I know men get more frustrated than woman when overwhelmed.. We at times too..

Just let me know how you honestly feel without going in circles. Be straight forward and I will respect your decision.

Just remember always, If this is a dream/fantasy or not... You will always hold a special spot in my heart!