Claim me

When you finally claim me as yours, You will experience the happiest moments in your life. I will experience the same.

I want to be the one that will converse with you after a long day of work. I can imagine us sitting in our backyard. The Feel of the fresh warm summer air caressing our faces. We feel the warm air through our hair. We sit on the back porch gazing at beauty that nature brings us. We sit and talk about our day. We giggle. We give each other encouragement. We give advice and our point of views. We are the one that keeps each other going, only wanting the best for each other. We are positive. We feel charged with our positive energy.

When we are sad, we are there to hold each other together. We are there to provide the support every couple should. We take the spirit out of one another. We cleanse it with our love. We nurture it. We bring it back to its strength. Then we take out the heart. We kiss it to take the hurt away. We hug it to show the heart that it has recharged with love.

When we are happy, we encourage it to grow. We never let it go away. We always assure it that it will have no end. The happiness turns into glory. We spread it around our home to recharge the energy. We make our home a place of empowerment so that when we lay to sleep or wake in the morning, we will recharge ourselves at every moment.

When we have sex we will also make love. We will have our bodies tangled within each other. We will have the warmth of our bodies sink into our skin and have it moisturize the bone. We will have the wetness of our bodies be the lotion of love on ourselves. We will have the precious fluids that come out of our bodies run through our veins so that we will have each other within us always. When we consume each other it will be the sign of commitment and love that we have for one another.

All I want is that we feel our love as REAL, a happily ever after, A Never Ending Story.

Believe

I believe in you. I believe in love.

Love is a Lost Pen!

Love is like a lost Pen.

I started to explain to a friend of mine about love. I said," It is like a lost pen. You know, when you are looking for a pen, and you cant find it. You really need one and you look everywhere. But the day you don't need it and you look at the very spot that you looked before but you are looking for something else, the pen pops out right in front of you. That is how you find Love".

Basically, once you let go of the Idea of "Looking" for love, that is when it will jump out and grab you.

I am not out "Looking". I am out Waiting. I know that Lancelot will come and grab me. He and I will have that instant connection. It will be an instant impact. It will be something that will just happen naturally. Something that will be out of this world. Something that will be a huge "WOW".

This is why I say, love is like a lost pen. Once you stop looking for it, it will come and get you.

I cant wait until it gets me.. I will have my legs wide open ready for it to get me.. LMAO

Touching Me.

I was at the mall. Like I always do, I get my eyebrows done. I look around like girls do. Search for clothes and see what looks good and what doesn't.

I had gone into Victoria Secret. I was looking at the Bra and Pantie sets. Looking at all the sexy designs and colors.

I looked up. I seen a guy, walking into the store.

When I see a guy walking into a Lingerie store , I think it is so sexy and Hot.

This guy was alone. I thought to myself, "He must be shopping for his girlfriend".

I seen him walking towards where I was. I kept on looking at the Bra's. I was looking for my size. I seen him looking through the colors of bras that I was looking at. He looked at me and whispered,"Can you give me advise on some of this stuff, I have no clue what I am looking for". I looked at him and asked,"What are you looking for the bra to do? I mean, are you looking for a lift in the breasts, style, or comfort?" He smiled and said, "Ummm, I think all of this... hehehe, I'm not sure". I replied,"OK, let me take you to the styles I buy that are all this, but it is pricey". He replied," OK, price is not a problem".

He followed me to my favorite section. I showed him the sets that I would buy. He asked me what colors would look good on a girl. I replied,"It depends on the skin tones of the girl". I giggled. He replied, "Well, I think it is like your skin color.. I am sorry, but I don't shop for this kind of thing a lot". I smiled and said," Its ok, I think it is really cute to see a guy shopping for this. What is your name? He replied, "My name is Keith, what is yours?" I replied,"My name is Jesse, it is a pleasure to meet you". I shook his hand. I then said,"So, how is it that a cute guy like you is out searching for bras and undies". He giggled.

As we were talking, Alex had come into the store. He seen that I was talking to a hot guy. He walked up towards us and kissed me. He, as a gentleman that he is, greeted Kieth. Alex, then said, "Hun, I wanna see that bra set that this gentleman holds, on you". I looked at Keith and said,' DO you want to see me wear this too? Keith looked very quickly at Alex as his face turned red. Alex looked at Keith and said, "It's ok, you can see too." Alex was giggling as this is the reaction he always gets when we want to do something like this.

I had gone into the dressing room. I took off my clothes and came out with the set on. Keith and Alex both looked at me. Both had a look as if they wanted to eat me. Alex said,' Baby, that is cute". Keith said," Cute?? That is damn sexy". I laughed.. I then said, "Hey Keith, come and help me take this off. I cant take this off on my own". Keith gave a huge gulp. He looked at Alex. Alex was giggling. Alex said,"Go help, I will be here like a guard on watch". Keith was dumbfounded, as he was not sure why Alex was so open in letting his wife have another man see her.

Keith started to run up to where I was. He came into the small dressing room. I giggled. I said, "So, is this the right set for your girlfriend?'" Keith replied," I love it, but the problem is, that I don't have a girlfriend.. It was an excuse to talk to you". I giggled.

I started to kiss Keith. Keith took off my bra and panties I had on. I bent over. He started to take off his pants half way. He started to fuck me. He was fucking me really hard. I could hear his deep breathing. I heard him say,"Wow, what an unexpected surprise". While Keith was fucking me, I gave him my cell phone. Keith looked at me. I said, " Take pictures of your big cock pumping my pussy, then send it to my husband Alex. I want him to see your big dick fucking his wife". Keith replied, "As long as he does not want drama". I laughed and said, "Take the pictures and send them, don't worry about Alex".

Keith started to take pictures of his big cock fucking my pussy and sent them to Alex. Keith started to cum. I could hear him breathe hard. I said,"Keith, take pictures of the cum coming out of your dick and some cum running out of my pussy". He did.. He sent the pictures to Alex.

Keith pulled up his pants. He said," You have one hell of a pussy". I giggled. I then got dressed.

We both walked out. I walked towards Alex and whispered in his ear, "I love You".

I dream, again

I woke up this morning holding onto the dream I had with you last night. It was a nice but different.

This time I seen you pass by in a taxi. A taxi that was grey, not yellow. I seen you look over at me. You knew it was me. We had gotten off the phone a couple of minutes prior. You had shades on. You looked at me and we passed by, I was looking over. I noticed that you were a little older than a picture I had. I wondered, if we were ever going to see each other (In the dream) again.

Then I went to my home. It was a different home. Not like mine. This home was up north, as the style of it, was of a Northern home.

I was redecorating the home. Moving furniture and looking for new designs for the home. Making the space in the home useful. The kids and I were re-arranging things. But I knew you were going to come home. Like if we were living with each other.

This is a vague dream I had with you. Maybe I will get something from it.. Not sure.. But, I await the day we see each other again!!

I love you!

Wanting and waiting for you!

I am wanting you every day. I wait patiently. I wait for you to come into my life so that i can share my wholeness with you. You will be the addition to our family . The missing puzzle that we are waiting for. The soul we need to join ours. The increase of male energy.

Did you know that I will love you until the day I die?

You know that we live forever. You know that our souls rejoice everyday with celebration because the universe knows it will have us ONE soon.

I must admit and cannot deny that I wait for that forthcoming day that you and I will be together.

We will See our soul, the US through our eyes. See what and who we are in person. It will be wonderful and beautiful.

I want you. I wait for you!!

You lye within

You lye deep within me. Never doubt that you don't. Just know that you do.

You show me so much and you dont even realize it. You keep my spirit going. You guide me. You are the other perfect half of me.

Sometimes my ego gets the best of me. I start to think about what will be with you and me. My ego jumps in and tells me lies. It tells me that you will not take me the way I am. I am imperfect and that you deserve better. My ego tells me that you are far from me and that you will not come and rescue me. It tells me that you will not love me the way I want to be loved.

I say, you love me. I say you will rescue me. I say that you will fit the perfect piece that is missing. I say that I am the one for you and you will love me for who I am and my little Angels as well. You will love the way I love my children. You will love how strong I am. You will love my crazy ideas. You will love the way i tell lame jokes and how I am me.

My ego says that you will find someone better. Someone at your category. Someone that will give you what you need. Someone that will be more loving. Someone that you will enjoy better.

I say, How can you enjoy someone that is not the perfect piece that you were made to be for me? I say you are at my category because we have already been together and destined to be with one another. I say, How more loving can one be when they are a mother and know what pure love means? I say that you will enjoy me because we are perfect for each other and how can you not enjoy perfect?

Regardless what Ego says, I have faith and trust that you will be with me and soon.

I love you over whatever you chose and I know you will chose me.

Besides, you lye deeply within me. No one can take you out. You are ingrained in me forever!

I love you Lancelot!!

Making us

I am flying over clouds thinking how I am going to react when I see you.
I am in the airplane. I look at all the puffy white clouds. Looking down at all of what seems to be land with different colors of dots everywhere as nothing is really clear. I am thinking and smiling. My body is nervous but excited at the same time.

I look at my watch and there is 20 minutes until we land. I am really nervous now.

I am thinking, I need to go to the restroom before I get off this plane so I can check my face. Check my make-up and refresh my lipstick. Checking my nose and teeth (A girl needs to be clean, LMAO). Luckily I had some perfume in my purse. I put more on, not too much. I check my hair making sure that it is not messy and I try to make it fall in certain ways. I then put gum in my mouth to refresh.

I am confidant now as I checked myself. I sit back down and hear the captain say it was almost time to land. He announced the weather and told us to put our seat belts on.

Oh God, I am really scared now, but excited with a huge grin.

Oh wow, we finally landed. I see people on the run ways, I see planes. I have butterflies in my stomach. It is terrible, more than ever experienced. I have not felt like this before. My heart pounding very fast. Thoughts going through my mind. What will I say?

The captain thanks us for flying on the flight. We can now get off the plane. I see everyone standing up to get off the plane. I feel like I want to be the last one off the plane but at the same time, I wanted to be the first one off. The butterflies are intense. I stand up and start to take my carry-on out of the compartment. I travel light.

I start to get off the plane and into the airport. I am still nervous because I know you are waiting for me. I start to walk and see another restroom. I had to stop at the restroom one last time. I had to make sure my hair was OK, and check my face and refresh my lipstick once more. Everything looks good. Oh, man.. Let me take my gum out so he does not notice that I had gum in my mouth. OK, my mouth is still refreshed.

I start to walk out and see the signs for luggage pick up. He is there, waiting for me. Oh, no.. I am going down the escalator. Ok, so he has on a black shirt, jeans and black shoes. Ummm, OMG what am I doing? I mean, this is crazy, we have been talking over the phone and over the net and I have never met him. But, here I go.. I am brave, I can do this.. I am looking around to see if I can see him..

Oh, I think I have spotted him. OMG, am I dreaming? I want to pinch myself but I know that I am not dreaming. I finally get of the escalator. I start to walk towards you. You look at me and smile. I stretch out my arms. I hug you tight. You hug me tight. I finally feel your warm body. You finally feel mine. My heart is pounding hard. I can feel yours too. It is like the energy became one. We could not let go.

You looked into my eyes and said, "Those big brown eyes are more beautiful in person than in pictures. I see the window open to your soul. It is better than I expected." I looked back at you and smirked. I said, "You are me and I am you, we are one and I truly love you". I kissed him on the lips and Once my lips touched his, I knew automatically he is my Lancelot.

My you

When we were once together, it was beautiful. We had a pure love. One that everyone would envy. One that made history.

I distinctly remember and feel this love. I know that once you enter my life and we are together, I will remember it fully. I need you to trigger those feelings that we once had.

Why does life have to be so unjust? Maybe because we chose this path. We chose this period so that we could get to where we are now.

I wish we could have planned it to be earlier than now, but we knew what was best. Maybe there was something that I didn't want to miss out on, who knows. But what I do know is that we are closer than ever. We are on the right path.

I know that our love will be a fire that will never be put out, as we will have passion that will never put out the fire. We will have endless love. Our vibrations will be so high that it would be impossible to lower. It will be higher than we have ever experienced.

I miss you. I love you. I want you.

I am here faithfully waiting for you!

My Soul

My soul is something that is Pure and bright. My soul is complete Love. My soul lives all around Love.

I can only say that my soul is great. Every morning that I get up, I greet my soul. I tell my soul how much I love her. I tell my soul how beautiful she is. I tell my soul how pure she is. I tell my soul that she is the greatest creation I have.

My soul is my all within me. The one that keeps me going. The perfect one.

How many people really appreciates themselves on a daily basis??

How many people take the time to greet what keeps them going?

THe most important piece in everyone's life, is the last and hardly the least to get noticed.

I must admit, that if everyone tells me what I already tell my soul it must be true.

The teachings of the nurishment of souls, I pass to my children.

The teaching of how to value your soul is passed on to my children.

I teach all that is around me, as I love to help those that need that intention within them.

Ask and you shall receive, right??

I give and it is given. I speak and I am heard. All that I am is a loving soul. This is who I am.

My soul is very delicate and strong. It can be an Angel and a Demon.

Doors closing

Have you heard the saying, when doors close another open?

I have doors through-out my life open and close. Some where pleasant some were not.

I believe that when something happens in your life its for a reason. As bad as it may seem, know that there is something to learn about of any mistakes, sorrow or regrets. Look back and ask yourself, what you would have done different? Don't dwell on something that you have no control over. Don't dwell over something you cannot change. Accept it and let go.

All of my doors has closed. I am very happy that my transition into the "New Me" is complete. I am now in motion forward.

I am moving forward in life because life does not have a pause button and I am needing to move with it.

I have let go of my past issues and am celebrating the new me, the one I love. The one that everyone notices. The one that is vibrant and joyful. The one that Loves life and loves her kids.

No one, can get me down even if they tried. I am solid now. I picture myself like this rock that is so huge, not even a bulldozer can damage the rock. I am strong and love the inner strength I hold. I feel like I cannot be knocked over even if anyone tries.

My beginning is now. Structuring my new family is what I have left to do. I need to teach them how a strong mother will be able to hold us as one until you come into our lives. I am very excited about this new venture that we will have together.

You will be very excited to know that I am stronger for my children and you will meet me strong and vibrant.

I did this for My children, myself and for you.

Are you ready for me?

Will you be able to handle little 'ole me.

I am quite a scattered cookie. :)

I want to do so much in life. I want to do a little bit of everything. i want you to be fearless. Ready to soar like an eagle.

If you or I want to go somewhere in the spare of the moment, we can get up and go. If we cant for some odd reason we can always accomidate.

I want to Hand glide, Bungie jumping, parashuting, climb a huge mountains, I want to do the unthinkable. I want to accomplish and try all that I can. I want you to be there and share the moments. Are you ready for me?

I want to be a wild like if I were in my early twenties, fuck like rabbits and do the unimaginable.

I want to try eating all the foods other countries eat (Even with my eyes closed). I want to eat the unusual. Are you ready for me?

I want to show the love I have for you and you for me, Are you ready for me?

I want to expereince all that I have never done with you, Are you ready?

I am ready and the only thing that is holding me back to do it now is you, so that I can expereince it with you!

I am waiting :)

You are not alone

Although you are alone, know that I am with you. You are always in my heart and I will always be with you. I don't want a moment to to go by and you feel alone. I want you to feel that I am there with you.

You may not feel me, you may not hear me, however I am in your heart. I am within you. I am in your mind. I am in your soul. Never doubt that I am with you. If you start to doubt, that is when you will feel alone.

When you and I are finally together, the heaven above will be extremely happy. The clouds will be as white as ever, Puffy and soft. The sky will be pure baby blue. The birds will sing of joy. The flowers blooming with their beautiful scent carried by the breeze. The breeze of the air will be smooth and fresh. The sun, shining stronger than ever and the color will be more brilliant than imaginable. The trees will bow down when we walk by them. The squirrels will run with joy. Butterflies flying in delight.

This is what the heaven above and the universe will give us as a gift of love.

You and I will be together in happiness. We will appreciate and provide gratitude to the world that will be happy for us.

We will be happy again as we used too in the past.

Im not perfect

In no way, shape or form am I perfect. There are many things that I wished that I didn't do. I wish I would have had the knowledge that I have now to correct all the mistakes I have done with my life.

The past is in the past. Something I must live with the rest of my life.

I look back at it all and I have no regrets, I am disappointed in myself, but I must appreciate my past as I am a stronger person today because of it all. I see life in a different way.

I never meant to hurt anyone. I never meant to make a huge indent in certain peoples lives.

Some indents where good and some are not very good.

There was a side of me that most people didn't know. A side that came out. A side that was waiting to be released.
It was the best release I could have ever done.
I feel free.

Not knowing why things happened the way they did, I know now why it all happened.
It was all because of you.

I needed to be this strong today because of you and the love we have.
The love I have lost and I want to re-claim in return.
I want to be the one always by your side. Catch all your tears. Care for you when you are sick.
I want you to be the addition to my life.

I started anew. I started a new path. My transition in life is complete.

I no longer look, because I know you will come and be delivered to me!

I must say one thing, I have found a grand reason for me, and that is YOU!!

I'm a loser

I am a loser for letting my life become an earthquake. I Let everything fall around me.

I should have been a strong foundation, a rock. To let everything stay intact. Never fall. Never crush.

I admit that this is my life that was full of sorrow and pain. Nothing to be proud of but the Angels I have created and brought into this world.

I look back and see two lives that i have placed a mark. Two lives that I have created. Nothing to be proud of, just something that I had to live with and now try to make it different. Learning was key.

I need to take the Loser I have created within myself and become the winner I am. I am not a loser any longer. I am strong.. I am the lightning I need to be to be this stable person. To be this Rock I need to be for my children and for you.

I was a Loser, one that did not know where to turn, where to hide from the earthquake once created.

I am now standing. I am now powerful. I am now love.

I am the re-born of me. I am the one that everyone sees, the one that everyone is attracted too.

I have one love, one soul and it is all yours. I am waiting for you to come and claim it.

I am no longer the loser I once was.. I am valuable. I am now your prize.

When I'm not with you

I ask that you love me when I am gone.

Gone by your side, away from your warm body, and when you cannot see me.

I want you to love me the most when I am not by your side. I want you to feel me, hear me and see me in your mind when we are apart. I want you to NEVER feel alone as I am always with you. No matter what you do, where you go, I am always with you.

When I am with you we are one and always love. We have the physical touch, scent and emotions running loose and we are overly excited and filled with love. We feel it, we know it is there.

When I am not at your side this is when I need you to be at your strongest. This is when I need you to love me more than ever as I don't want you sad, feeling alone, or down. This is what I do NOT want.

I want you to love me when I am not at your side so that you can have that peace and loving feeling with you always.

Baby, when I am gone.. Love me the most, when I am with you cherish the moments.

In search of a Ghost

You are the ghost I am chasing.

You are the one I am waiting for. You are the one that I live day to day.

I need you. I only think about you.

I often wonder why I cannot seem to find you. Why is it so hard to have you in my arms. Why is it that you have not appeared in front of me?

All I can think of is that it is not our time and I have to be patient.

I am alone. I need a warm body next to me.

I need to feel you, touch you and fuck you.

I know i can see you, feel you and fuck you but only in my dreams at night.

When I lay in bed, I am excited to sleep, just so that I can have you in my arms.

I miss you when I wake up.

But, I know that when I go to sleep at night, I will have you once again!

I am truly in search of a ghost, but this is OK. I know I will find you and you will be with me once again.

I call apon my Angels so that they will fly to where you are and hand deliver you to me.

I want you to arrive safe and I know with my Angels, you will arrive without a scratch.

I love you Lancelot

Surrender to me

You will surrender yourself to my wild and crazy fantasy that I have in store for you!!

The kids where off at your sisters house, as she arranged a play date.

I was taking a hot bubble bath in our bathroom. I had the candles burning and soft angelic music playing. I was reading a book, trying to relax as the kids were not home.

I heard the front door close as you had come home a little earlier than usual. I heard your footsteps walking around the house as it seemed that you were looking for me. I heard your footsteps coming closer to our master bathroom. I seen the door knob turn and you opened the door. You came in with a smile and asked, "What a surprise, i never see you in the bathtub. I am glad you are taking some time for yourself". I smiled back and said, "You know this is rare and I must take advantage whenever possible". You walked towards me and kneeled down to where I was and said,"What are you planning on doing with your free time". I replied,"Derek is coming over. I am glad you came home early". I smiled. You said, "Me too"..

You had gotten up and walked towards the door of the bathroom. My cell started to ring. I answered. I said, "Hey baby.. Yes, I am home.. Ummmm, just walk in the door, it is open... OK, baby, I will see you in a couple of minutes". You heard me on the phone while walking out. I hung up the phone and you turned to me and asked ," Is there anything you would like me to do for you?" I replied, "Yes, sweetie. I would like you to get my robe and dry me off, please". You smiled. You grabbed my robe and towel. You started to dry my wet body. You grabbed my body spray and started to spray my body. You knew everything about me. You know that I like to smell very well. You put my robe on and gently brushed my hair. I started to put on makeup and lipstick.

You started to kiss me on the neck. I looked at you and said, "Not now, sweetie.. You know that Derek is coming and I want to be clean for him". You smiled and nicely said,"Very well".

The front door opened and I hear the footsteps of Derek walking in the front door. I yelled,"Baby, I am in my room". We heard the footsteps of Derek walking into the bedroom. Derek seen you in our bedroom. I said, "Baby, today Alex will watch us. I want him to see how he needs to fuck me. He needs to see how well you fuck me and he needs a real man to show him how".

Derek replied, "Sure baby, anything to satisfy you". I looked at you and said, " Sit down on the bed. I need you to see very closely how Derek fucks me. This is how you will learn. You will see his HOT dick enter my warm pussy." You obeyed. You sat on the bed and waited as I asked you too. Derek came to me and smelled the body spray you had sprayed on my body. He started to caress my hair that you had freshly combed. He started to kiss me. We started to kiss each other like you were not even in the room. With no cares that you were watching us. Derek started to take my robe off. He started to touch my breasts. He started to suck my breasts. I started to breath very heavy. I looked over at you and smiled. I started to lick my lips in front of you. I was showing you the pleasure I was feeling with my lover. You sat there and watched.

I started to take off Derek's shirt.I started to kiss Derek on his lips. Then I moved my lips over his skin towards his neck. I started to kiss him while looking at you. Derek was touching my pussy while he was kissing my body. You sat there watching.

I layed Derek down on the bed and started to unbutton his pants. I then started to unzip his pants. While looking at you, I said,"Derek, Fuck me really hard like you usually do. I want Alex to watch you. I want him to see how a man needs to fuck his wife." Derek replied,"Sure baby,l will show him how a real strong big dick should be used". I looked at you and I laughed. I laughed while putting his dick in my mouth. I started to suck his dick while looking at you. My tongue was gliding back and fourth on his hard dick. I would show you with my tongue how I was enjoying licking another mans cock. Your eyes were locked to how I would suck his dick. I looked at you and said, "Alex, look down at my pussy. I want you to see how his big, hard dick enters my pussy". You obeyed. I placed his hard cock into my pussy. I started to ride Derek. Derek started to moan and say,"Hell yes, this pussy feels good. Oh my God... Alex, your wife has a nice soft pussy".While I was riding Derek, I took my hands grabbed your hair and pushed your head towards my pussy and Derek's dick. I said, "Alex, look at how I ride Derek. Look closely to how his dick enters my pussy. Learn how to fuck your wife". Your nose could nearly touch Derek's hard cock and my pussy as I pushed your face very close.

You didnt say a word. You just observed. Excited in knowing that you were watching, I started to cum. Oh, you could hear the hard breathing while I started to cum. You seen Derek's dick get really wet as I had you closely observing us fucking.

I took Derek's dick out of my pussy and turned to you and said," Alex, suck my cum. I want you to taste what real sex should feel like.. Suck me now". You looked at me and started to lick my pussy. Tasting my pussy and Derek's dick that freshly came out of it. You started to lick and suck. It felt so good. I didn't want to admit how good it felt. You obeyed and licked my pussy as I demanded you too.

I then told Derek to kiss my while you started to lick my wet pussy. Derek started to kiss me and lick my neck. He wanted to fuck me. Derek said, "Baby, I want Alex to see how you make me cum. I want to fuck you and hard". I then said, "Alex, stop licking and watch me make Derek cum. See how a real man pleasures me". You sat up and watched.

Derek started to fuck me from behind. I was on all fours. You can hear how my ass pounded on him while he was fucking me fast.

I looked over at you and smiled. I said,"Alex, lay underneath me and start sucking my breasts while he fucks me. You obeyed. You started to suck my breasts while Derek fucked me. I said,"Alex, see... this is how your wife needs to feel. I need to feel like a woman in bed. I want you to lick my pussy while Derek fucks me". You started to lick my clit as you felt Derek enter his dick in my pussy. Derek started to feel like he was going to cum. He pulled his raw dick out and started to pump his cum on my pussy and on my ass. You were still sucking my pussy and feel cum running down my pussy. Derek turned and started to kiss me as you were licking my pussy. I started to cum once more. You sucked me very well that I had no choice but to cum. Oh, It felt very good.

Derek, then turned to me and said,"I will call you baby. This was good". He started to get dressed and you sat up just watching him getting dressed. He then gave me a kiss goodbye. I turned to you and said,"Did you see how he fucked me?' You nodded. I then said, "Fuck me now, just like he did". You started to take off your clothes. You started to fuck me right after Derek left his scent all over me.

Spiritual Romance

I want a spiritual Romance with my Soul Mate. I would like to have this first BEFORE I enter into an intimate relationship. I want to share my completeness with my partner. I don't want my partner to feel that he is the one that completes me as this is not so. It may have sounded this way in my past blogs, however sometimes I express myself in certain ways and it seems like Lancelot will "Complete" me. I cannot be complete as I am already so. I wanted to clarify this. I want him to be complete as well. So that we can live a love that not a lot of people experience. I am no longer clingy, I am no longer wanting, I am no longer incomplete. I AM COMPLETE AND HAPPY! Of course circumstances in life has you in turmoil, however I am over all happy.

My life with Lancelot will have love and passion.

Lancelot and I, will connect with mother earth. We will love the world for what it is. We will love each other for who we are, NOT what we have. We will show our children how they are complete and happy.

I will add to his completeness and bare him a child if this is what he desires!

I will see NO faults in Lancelot. He will have none. He who IS COMPLETE will love himself and will NOT have faults. He will take good care of himself and help others and never judge. He will have NO insecurities. He will be there for me and my children as he carries no ego.

We will share out deepest most intimate thoughts. We will have NO fear. We will be 100% open to each other. Since we trust ourselves we will trust one another. Our sexuality will have no boundaries as we are comfortable with ourselves. We will NOT experience jealousy. We will NEVER play with each others emotions. We will only respect each other since we respect ourselves.

This is the spiritual Romance I want with Lancelot.

It's Love

When I see you, I feel love.

When I hear your voice, I feel love.

When I think about you, I feel love.

When I think I feel you, I feel Love.

When I feel the warm breeze of the wind, I feel You.

When I feel the warm sun, I feel you.

When I feel the rain, I know its you sending me blessings from afar.

When I say "I Love You", I think of you..

This is surely love, It is Love..

~YOU ARE MY LOVE! ~

2010 is our Year!

2010 will be our year.

This year we will our year. The year we will love. The year we will be happy. The year we will establish our family. The year we will create only happiness. We will become one.

WE WILL BE HAPPY!

This year we will have prosperity,happiness, Overwhelming Abundance, LOVE, Great Health, and Stability.

Baby, this is what I will share with you. I am overly excited to know that you and I will have only happiness.

I wait for the day that we start this new journey in our lives.

I wait nervous, yet wanting the days to accelerate until we reunite and become one.

This day December 31, 2009, I want to tell you that wherever you may be, I will be with you in spirit. When the clock strikes midnight, feel the gentle kiss on your soft warm cheek. Listed for my voice as I will whisper "I Love you" in your ear. Feel your skin as you will feel my hug. Most importantly know that my heart is always with you and I WILL be there shortly with you!

I LOVE YOU AND FOREVER WILL!!

Questions

Can I ask you some questions??

Will you promise to love me endlessly?

Will you promise to cheer me when I am down?

Will you promise to laugh at my corny jokes?

Will you sing me to sleep on the nights I cant sleep?

Will you promise to glide your fingers across my back while I lay on you so I can feel secure?

Will you promise to fuck me every night?

Will you promise to kiss me before you go to work everyday?

Will you promise to talk to me even when you are tired?

Will you promise to never get mad but to work things out?

Will you promise to Love my children as they were your own?

Will you promise to be my best friend?

Will you promise to make me happy??

All of these promises I will return. I love you and I always will!!

You are my New Year!

I must admit, this one will be the one I will enjoy to write the most!

I sit antsy writing this.

I sit with my eyes just desiring in finally seeing you. My body cries for you. My Soul sings to you. My heart loves you and I want you.

This 2010 will be the year that I will meet you. This year I WILL be with you. I am told I will be with you when the flowers are in bloom. That is not that far away. It is getting closer. I am not going to lose you. I know that you will be ready for me as I will be for you. I desire you and have not even seen your skin. I taste you and never set my lips on you.

When we see each other for the first time, we will automatically know. We will know that we are for each other. When our lips touch for the first time, that will be confirmation of our feelings. My palms sweat while I write this as I am excited just thinking about this. I must admit that I am scared. I don't know how I will react. I know that when we meet it will be like it was supposed to be, "Perfect". Just as we will be together.

I want to bear fruits with you.

I will surrender myself completely to you. I hope you enjoy it. I will finally be with you. I will be ready for you. I will move anywhere you want me too and leave my old life behind if I must. I am not scared of jumping up and leaving as I have in the past. I am willing to be with you and only be happy with you. You will fulfill my crazy ideas, my crazy actions, and make me feel like the woman I am.

I know that if i am nervous in any way, you will be there to console me and to calm my nerves. Baby, please do not think its because I don't want to be with you and they are nerves of regret. They are nerves of contentment. They are nerves of finally being with you after all this time lost. I sigh when I write this because I know that this is my destiny, to find you and be with you.

You are mine. You will be in my arms finally. I am very excited. I am like a little girl waiting to open her gift as it had been placed in front of me for a great while and I cannot open it until a certain time.

I will give you anything you need. I will understand. I will believe. I will surrender. I am completely yours. I will make you happy. I will be the submissive wife you deserve. I will be your whore. I will be the one that will overwhelm your desires. I hope you can keep up with me. There is enough of everything for you. I will be happy with you and I guarantee you will be happy with me. I have all the time in the world for you.

You are my New Year and you will always be mine FOREVER!!

I drink You!

I know that I am determined. I know that I will know if you are for me. I will know we are destined.

When you and I are finally together, I will drink you. I will finally have you running through my veins. I will have you within me. I will Hold you. I will be with you. I will caress you. I will give you part of me and you will give me part of you.

I will drink you until there is nothing else to drink. I will wait until you refill so that I can have the pleasure of tasting you once more.

You have a desirable taste. A taste I have never tasted before. A taste that actually makes me addicted. I have never been addicted to anyone before, but ever since I tasted you, I became addicted and I love it. I desire you. I'm more attracted to you. You have what I crave. I hunger for you. I thirst and only want to drink you.

You are everything I have always imagined you'd be.

I am so blessed to have been able to finally taste you. To drink you.

Dreams Do come true!

Dreams DO come true!

Dreams come true as I see mine manifesting in front of my eyes. I see the love that I so long come into existence.

I must admit that I am scared and do not know How to act the day I see him in front of me. What will be my first words? How should I kiss him? Would it be bold to kiss him on the lips or a soft touch of my lips on his cheek? Should I hold his hands? Should I say something funny? What am I going to do when I first meet him?

I am not sure, But what I do know is that I will love him like I have NEVER loved in my life.

I asked someone today to define what he thought was love. There is not right or wrong answer to this question. But, I realized after I explained my definition, I never had real love in my life. The definition I gave did not match any of my past frogs. It was a real eye opener.. I was surprised. I then knew, i wanted the love I so desired.

My Dream of Lancelot is coming together. I will give him anything he needs to make us happy. If he wants a child, i will give it to him. He wants my pussy, I will give it to him. He wants my ass, I will give it to him. He wants my body, I will give it to him. He wants my kisses, I will give it to him. He wants my love, He will have endless love.

Dreams DO come true as I have see mine unfolding. I can only thank the Universe/Source in sending him to me. I asked and I surely am receiving. I am glad that we will reunite. I am not sure when but it is destined. I know it will happen. He is mine and I am his. This is what love is about right? Life is about being happy, right?

~Do remember Dreams DO come true. Never let yours die, as I am determined NEVER to let mine go!~

Have I told you?

Have I told you lately that I love you?

You are the core of my heart. You are the one that keeps me going. You are the one that my heart cries for. You are the one that my body craves for. Your lips is what my skin hungers. Your Love is what my soul requires.

Have I told you that I dreamed with you last night?

I dreamed of how you wanted me but you where to shy to approach me. You talked to me and I felt you wanting me but you just didn't dare. I remember your eyes, your hair, your skin, your shirt and pants.

Have I told you that I miss you?

Yesterday, I realized how much I miss you. When I lay at night, I rub myself imagining it is you. When I wake in the morning, I smell your hair. I open my eyes and you are not there. I then begin to miss you. I start to make breakfast and I see an empty seat were you should be. I get ready to start my day and there is no one to share what my itinerary looks.

Have I told you that I want you?

I do, I want you now!!

Love me when I'm Gone

When I go home after seeing you, this is when I love you the most. Part of me is with you. It is loving you when I am not there. Love me when I am not beside you. Love me so that I can feel it when you are not with me.

When I am not with you, I would never let you down. I am sure that there are times I could, but I love you so much that I would NEVER let you down. I can tell you anything and everything. Everything I tell my friends, I can tell you. My trust in you is so high that there is nothing I can keep from you. You are my everything. I hope you know that I can tell you everything.

When I am gone that is when I need you to love me the most. This time is so challenging that I need you to love me most so that we can feel secure, strong and a concrete foundation. When I am not by your side, I need you to listen to my voice. I want you to hear me whisper,"I love you" as I do this every night before I go to sleep. You are my everything. My love for you is stronger than you could ever imagine.

When I am not by your side, look up at the sky, because I am the one shining very strong looking down upon you. I am the gentle wind that caresses your face, I am the scent of nature that you smell. I am always with you, so love me when I am not with you.

Remember always to love me the most when I am gone!

When I am with you, you are always attentive. You make sure I am loved. You assure your feelings for me every second I am with you. You have me head over heals for you. I think about you even when I am with you. You are the owner of my thoughts, my heart and my soul.

Christmas Blues

While baking cookies tonight with the kids, we were preparing the night for Santa to come. We do this every year. We cook dinner, Bake cookies and relax for the evening. Today, was a little different. It felt like something was missing. The Christmas spirit was just not there, not the same. I cooked, we baked and we are getting ready to join my clients/friends at a Christmas party at their house. We started to clean up the mess we had made baking for Santa.

I started to get the children and myself ready when it hit me. I was so busy and I know now what I was missing. It was you. It would have been complete to have you here with us baking cookies, eating dinner and ready to hit the streets to friends and celebrate Christmas. Boy, I miss not having you. Even if I never actually felt you in this life, but I do remember in our past life. I remember the way you held me, kissed me, and how we made love. Yes, I miss that and I want this back!

I want to have you in our kitchen baking cookies, help cleaning up, eating and playing around like kids. I can imagine us throwing flour around and licking the icing off of our lips. I can imagine us telling the kids stories of Santa and watching a family movie until the kids are ready to go to bed. I can see us sneaking the presents under the tree and celebrate in bed. Having an outburst of Christmas passion. Making you moan with joy. Having you want Christmas every single day!

Lancelot, I miss you and you are the missing piece in my life. I cannot wait until you and I become one again.

Let me bake you in bed like you deserve to be.

He's just not into you

I was watching a movie that I highly recommend. It is funny because it is about several couples and situations of Love that happens in Reality. It is about commitment phobia, real love, and not knowing what he or she wants in love. It was very educational because it shows what a girl and a guy are thinking. It also gives you pointers on signs if a girl or guy is interested.

I have to admit, that I related more to Gigi in this movie. She wasn't desperate for a guy, she approached them all in the wrong way. I am not as Nagy as she is in the movie, but I am very dominant in some situation and I felt like her. She met a guy named Alex. He helped her with different signs that men gave off, if they were interested in a girl.

It ends up that Alex really likes Gigi after helping her and he also admitted that he had a commitment phobia and he then started a relationship to Gigi and committed.

I felt like I was Gigi, because at times I would find myself calling or over texting a guy. I have learned over the last several months, to calm that down. I am not the one that needs to persue, if he is interested he will turn up out of the blue. If he is not interested, its ok.... there is someone out there for me that will treat me the way I am meant to be treated. Look at it this way, why want a guy that is not totally into you anyway?? He will only end up treating you like shit. He is not the only man out there. There are many. Trust me, I have more guys now hit on me than ever and I am not even putting myself out there anymore. They come to me and they are handsome, intelligent and have big hearts. The funny part is, is that I thought men would have a problem with me having children. This is the least of their worries. Times change and people change, so heads up ladies there are tons of fish in the sea!!

Something interesting that was mentioned several times in the movie. Guys have this thing called the "Exception" and the "Rule". The rule you never marry, she is one that you date for a long time, but she is the "Rule". You have the "Exception" and these handful are asked from the guys to marry.

There was this one couple that were married that actually ended up in a divorce because he was dating her for several years, she was actually a "Rule" but she trapped him into believing that if he did not marry her, he would be this bad guy. He married her and they fell out of love and stayed in a routine (No sex By the Way, ouch!!). Well, needless to say he cheated on her and told her BUT she wanted to make it work. Well, they ended up divorcing.

They had a lot of good views in this movie. I must admit, that it made me realize a lot in this movie.

Basically, Girls if he is into you, he will call you. He will look for you. If he doesn't, then let go and stop harassing and stalking them. They DONT want you. Let them come after you, yes make a phone call or text but if he doesn't respond or act upon a request, let it go..

Guys, if she wont sleep with you, she is not interested. If she thinks you are cuddly or independent, then move on.. Those are words of "No way". If she doesn't invite you to her home ever, it will never happen. Look for someone else..

This is a great movie and will help us that are single, Divorced to play the game without getting hurt or felling unwanted.

The movie is called "He is just not into you:

Making you Mine

I cant wait until the day you and I finally meet. I wait for that day. I know that you and I will be shy at first and will warm up with arms wide open ready to receive each other.

When I see you for the first time, I will know that our love will be forever. When the breeze of the spring air comes. When the flowers start to bloom, that is when the universe with have us bloom. We will bloom and meet around this time. We will blend like the beautiful flowers. Our connection will be strong. We will coalesce naturally.

When our bodies combine, we will have an eruption of love, a super surge or electric that will run through our veins. We will feel it from the strains of our hair, through our skin, nerves, and it will spread out until it reaches our tips of out fingers and toes.

Making you mine is my ultimate goal. My obsession. I want you to be part of me and I of you.

Lancelot, I want you badly, but I know it is not time yet.

I wait for you. You already are mine!

Tangled

I am tangled with what I thought was you. I am sorry Lancelot. I thought he was you and I see he is not. I thought I felt you and I didn't. I thought you were him and I have come to realize, it wasn't. I am sorry for mistaking you.

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Your love is pure, your love is all mine. I know that you could never have anyone else but me. I know that I will be your one and only. I know that you will not scope around after you find me because you will automatically know I am the one. You don't need to look any further because you will feel the strong burning sensation, that I am for you.

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I will know that you are Lancelot, the one I have been waiting patiently for. I will know that you are the one I have created in this life. We created each other. We created each other to our likings. You promised to come and rescue me once again. I have mistaken you for another prince, But I know that you are not him. I know that you will rescue me as planned.

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I love you! I giggle as I write this because you planned out our destiny. You planned how wonderful this life will be, once we find each other. You found me. You Knew once you saw me, I was completely yours. My heart will be in celebration as we are in union with us.You will look directly in my eyes and know I am yours. You will feel that we have met each other before in the past. We will feel in union once again. This time with nothing to fear. With nothing to regret. With nothing to hold us back.

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I promise never to tangle my emotions and confuse you with someone else.

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I promise to wait for you until we meet.

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I know how we will meet. I await the time. I await the day. As it will be an outburst of astonishment amongst everyone. We will surprise the world with all the love you and I will share.

We will love again!!

You are my Candy

You are my candy.

Every time I suck on a Hard candy cane, I think of you.

I hope you feel how hard I suck the candy cane. I think about how sweet you are.

When I lick the Candy Cane, I think about how soft you are.

When I touch the candy cane, I think how hard you must be.

When I finish the candy cane, I think how content you must be..

You are my Candy Cane!!

Take Me for Christmas

I give me to you. I want you to have me for Christmas. I hope you like it.

I wanted to give you something special. I am not sure what you like or what you wanted.

The most valuable of my possessions is my heart. I give it to you unconditionally. I know you will take care of it. I know you will love it more than I have. I know that you will make sure it is secure and loved.

When you take me for Christmas, I hope you will not handle me rough, as I am very delicate.

I love you and want you to take me for Christmas!!

All I want for Christmas is You!

Can I have you for Christmas?

Everyone is tucked in their bed. Awaiting for Christmas to arrive. I am thinking about the jolly 'ole guy going down thousands of chimney's. I wonder if he gets tired? I wonder what he has for me in his sleigh. I only asked him for one thing. Did he have room in that crowded sleigh for my present? I have been extra good this year. I have cried a lot this year too. I have forgiven a lot of people in my life. Will he remember my present?

Just like all the children in this world that have hope, I do too. I have hope that you will come. That you will be the one to open my front door and dress up like Santa. I want you so bad to be with me on such a special day. I know that this time next year you will be with me. I know that you will be in my warm king sized bed this time next year. You will be anxious just like the Kids and I to wake up on Christmas day. Of course it will be extra special because you will be here with us!

I still have hope, just like all the other children that awaits for Santa. I wrote him a letter and told him what I wanted. Do you think he remembered? Do you think he will bring me what I asked? I hope it fits in his sleigh.

The only thing I asked Santa for was you..

If Santa forgot , do you think you will feel my urges and will you find me? You don't know where I live. You don't know how to find me. So I was really thinking about this. I will call you in spirit and I whisper to you where I live. I will wait for you. I will. I ask that you come to me. I hope you do. I want you for Christmas and nothing more!

I only asked Santa for you.

Will he bring you to me?

Can you love like This?

Underneath the trees you and I are looking up at the sky. We are holding our arms out and touching our hands. Our heads are on opposite sides touching. We see the butterflies flying. We hear the birds chirping. We are admiring the beautiful creations of mother earth. We see the white clouds that are puffy and look like cotton balls. The sky is clear and baby blue. We feel a soft breeze and the weather is warm.

We talk about what we feel. We talk about our feelings without holding back. We watch the birds flying back and forth. We have been laying on the green grass for hours. We do not even realize the time going by as we are content in laying on the soft green grass.

It begins to get dark. The moon pops out. The stars are starting to shine. We are still laying in the same position. We are peaceful and in harmony with each other. We are laying like two little kids with no worries of time nor anything around us.

We ask eachother how beautiful it would be if the world loved like we love eachother. What if everyone cared and swallowed their pride like we do? They would expereince true bliss like we are.

Do you think it is possible that everyone in this world could feel how we feel?

I know that your family was surprised in how much you and I loved each other. They could not believe that someone could ever make you happy again. I remember the first time I met them. They were looking at me with contentment in finally meeting me, But I could tell in their eyes, they were worried that you would get hurt again. Now when I see them, I don't see the worry anymore. What I see are eyes of wanting to have the same feelings you and I have. They are very happy that we have found each other after all these obstacles in life.

I know my family thought I would never find true happiness. They thought I was forever going to be searching for my soul mate. They thought I was crazy. They thought that me having this fantasy of you, I would surely be alone. Boy, did we show them. They have hope now. They see that true love like ours do exist. They know that soul mates are out there. They have no question about it as they see us so much in love.

I know that everyone can love like we do. They have to have faith like you and I had. They know deep down that they can love, its a matter of staying true of how they feel and determined for it. Don't settle for something you know is not right. I settled twice with the past frogs in my life. Determined the third time around after finding my inner self and soul, I then knew who I really am and Who I needed to have in my life.

I am so blessed that we have found each other. I know that our love will forever be endless. You and I were created for each other. Isn't it ironic how we both are the same in all ways. The way we know what the other is thinking and feeling without having to be right beside each other?

Thank you for waiting for me and not settling.

I love you Lancelot, I always will!

Never let me go!

Assure me that you will never let me go. A girl needs re-assurance. If I don't feel it, I will think you will let me go. I trust you. I really do, but as you know, I am female and we are odd creatures. We like to feel wanted and love.

I know we are far from eachother. I know I cannot feel your heated touch. I know I cannot feel your warm kisses. I know I cannot feel your warm body, I know I cannot hear your heart beat. One thing I know is that your love for me is true. But I still need that re-Assurance. I need to know that your love for me is still holding tight for me.

I need to feel you every night before I go to bed. I need to feel your spirit.

I need to feel you in the morning when I wake. Even if it is a gentle burning sensation in my gut. That in itself assures me, you are thinking of me.

I need to feel you when the sun is at its highest. I want to know that the warm sun is you stimulating my body.

Please, whatever you do, Please never let me go!!

Us

I day dream about us on an exotic Island. Yes, an island far from home. One with sparkling clear blue waters. When you look at the ocean it sparkles like thousands of diamonds floating on the water. You can see huge white Angel fish swimming in the ocean. The waves gently caressing the white sand. The sun very hot warming up the sand and ocean with delight.

I see us walking along the ocean side. We start to walk and look at the fish. We are holding hands. We start to giggle and talk about so many different things. We start to run, kicking the salty sea water at each other. We play like children.

We bury each other under the sand. I place breasts on you and make you look like a mermaid. When you bury me, you create me as a mermaid angel and I smile. We build a castle and laugh because it looks disfigured. We look at each other in contentment. We are having fun. We are being ourselves. Joy fills our faces and heart.

We start to swim in the ocean. We hold hands and dance in the water. We laugh. We kiss. We touch. We desire each other.

When its at the end of the day and the sun wants to rest. We go into our room and shower. We clean the sand off of each other. We soap our bodies, we kiss, we touch, we make love.

We dress, we go out into the sweet sunset. We watch the sun go down. We are in Harmony.

I Promise

I promise you that once you and I re-unite (Just as you say) I will never let you go. I promise to be there with you until we die. I will be there for you when Hope has demised, when sickness enters, when tomorrow doesn't come, when hard times creeps up, when you are feeling down. I promise never to let you go.

When you feel that tomorrow will not come, I will assure you I will be there with you until the end.

When you feel like you are going to fall, I promise to never let you down.

When you feel like love is leaving, I promise to reassure my love for you.

When you feel hopeless, I promise to give you hope.

When you feel sick and weak, I promise to take care of you and make you strong again.

When you feel sad, I promise to make you happy.

When you feel horny, I promise to sex you out.

I promise that I will always be with you no matter what.

I make this promise to you in public today and if I shall ever fail it will be because I have perished. But even with me gone, I will promise to watch you and become your guardian Angel!

Giving you up

Giving you up would be the hardest thing. If this is what will make you happy, I would do this for you. If you have found someone that makes you dream the way you need, love the way you feel alive again, Make you feel vibrant again, I will give you up just so that you can be happy.

I have no hate in my body. I have only pure love. I am willing to give you up so that you may love again.

I am willing to let you go if I need too. Just know that in my heart you are there. You are the holder of my heart and if you decide to return, I will be waiting for you. I know that our love is strong. I know that our souls call each other. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to love. I am here for you. I will wait for you.I will pick you up when you are down.

I will never leave you. Even if you think I should.

We promised to join each other in this lifetime. If you changed your mind, I understand. I cry when I write this because deep down it hurts. Deep down my soul says you are mine. You shouldn't be with anyone else. But, for you I am willing to give you up. I am willing to walk away.

I must admit, seeing all these girls wanting to be with you hurts. But, I know you are totally worth it. I know that any girl would want to be with you. I know that all girls would love to have my Lancelot. You are everything a girl wants and more!

All I can do is trust you without knowing you. I trust our love will re-unite like you say. But if you change your mind, I understand. I love you and this will NEVER change. You were created for me. I am created for you. We were destined to be with each other.

I think letting you go is the best way to go. I know that in my heart it does not want too. But if this is what it takes to make you happy, know that I will just for you. I love you and I cannot stress this enough. We are ONE and will always be!!

I have had a lot of offers and have always turned them down. I know we are much more than anything anyone could ever offer. I know that our love will be endless and I cannot afford to make another mistake. Every time I turn there is someone there trying to take you place. I resist as I know I have you and you are on your way for me. I am standing on my promise to wait. I will wait forever if I must.

I cannot afford to lose you as I love you and have not met you!

What if

What if you and I take a day and just connect our souls. Will we be able to feel each other? Will I be able to touch you and look into your sweet sparkling eyes and tell you how much I love you. I would tell you how much I wished for this day.

What if I meditated and started to talk to you. Would you hear my voice? Would you answer back? Would I hear your manly voice?

What if I sleep and you are in my dream. Will you have the same dream and be with me? Would you see what I see? Would you be able to feel the same thing I am feeling?

What if I thought of you so much that I was in deep thought. Would my thoughts call your thoughts? Would you be able to think the same thing I am thinking?

What if I was sick, would you feel my body aching and cold? Would you be able to feel my body and be able to soothe me?

What if I was so mad, would you be able to feel me and calm me down. Maybe send me a hug so I would not be mad anymore?

What if I was sad and crying? Would you feel my hurt? Would you send me a kiss from afar so I knew you were feeling my pain and want it gone?

What if I I was in pain? Would you feel where I hurt? Would you feel the pain and try to send me healing energy so that I would feel better?

What if I was stressed? Would you be able to talk me into happiness? Would you be able to encourage me?

What if I died? What would you do? Where would you go?

What if I seen you on the street one day? What would you do? What would you say?

I know that If you felt, thought or needed anything I would feel you, hear you and sense you. I will ALWAYS be there for you!!

Wild Fun

I was thinking about you today, like I always do. I thought about things that I want to do to you. I was thinking about some wild fun I want to have with you. I was thinking how much fun it would be to try different ways of having sex with you. I came up with some wild fantasies. I want to tell you today. I hope you get as aroused as I do.

I was on my way to the adult toy shop today with a female friend. I cant lie to you. I was thinking about a two sided dick to fuck her since I dont have you with me. I think maybe fucking another girl is not "Cheating" on you. It makes me horny to think of me fucking another girl and you watching. I also thought you could even fuck her too.

Once I got to the adult toy shop, I was looking at all the plastic/rubber dicks. There were different types, shapes, colors and functions. I wondered while I was in there, if you had a preference and which one would appeal to you. Which one would you like to see enter my pussy while I am with you. Which one will have you aroused. Which one will you like to play with better?

We were in the toy shop for over an hour looking and giggling over which one we wanted. My friend and I ended up buying the same toy. Oh, what fun am I going to have with you tonight. Yes, I named it after YOU!! Lancelot you and I are going to have wild fun. Even though you are far from me right know, I know that you will feel my high vibrations tonight. Yes, you will feel me touching my breasts, touching my pussy. You will know because you will feel warm inside. Your dick may even get hard and you may not even know why.

I was thinking about different ways to have sex with you.. Yes, let me share with you the ways I want to fuck you. I want to lay you on the bed. I want to caress your soft warm skin. I want to have food around us.

Oh, baby I am wet just thinking about you and the ways I will fuck you.

I want to have steak, cooked rare. I want to take the flavored blood running from the steak and place it on your chest. I want to lick it off of you. I want to lick all the blood running from the steak and suck it. I want to kiss your neck and put the flavor of the steak all over you. I want to take red wine and pour it all over your dick and suck it off. Yes, suck it off and get tipsy from drinking you. I want to take whip cream and fill your mouth. I want to kiss you and eat up the whip cream from within you. I want to savor you!! I want you to be the food I eat, the wine I drink and have you for desert. Would you like this my dear? Would you like me to eat and drink you every day??

I want to continue to be celibate. I only want to use a toy until i re-unite with you. You and are are attached in a spiritual way and you know this. You know that you and I can never be apart. We were made for eachother and destined to be together. You will forever be mine.

I at times feel like I want to let you go, but I cant.. I love you too much to let myself die without You!!

I love you Lancelot and forever will!!

I want you

I totally want you. I want your scent, your warm body, your voice, your seductive eyes, your hard dick.

I want you so bad. The cocaine I am for you have reversed. You are the cocaine I need every chance I can get you.

I want you with me every minute, every hour, every day.

Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Yes, All 7 days with you!!

I want you, this is my biggest and only wish.

Where can I see you?? Where can I meet you?? I want you!!