You are my New Year!

I must admit, this one will be the one I will enjoy to write the most!

I sit antsy writing this.

I sit with my eyes just desiring in finally seeing you. My body cries for you. My Soul sings to you. My heart loves you and I want you.

This 2010 will be the year that I will meet you. This year I WILL be with you. I am told I will be with you when the flowers are in bloom. That is not that far away. It is getting closer. I am not going to lose you. I know that you will be ready for me as I will be for you. I desire you and have not even seen your skin. I taste you and never set my lips on you.

When we see each other for the first time, we will automatically know. We will know that we are for each other. When our lips touch for the first time, that will be confirmation of our feelings. My palms sweat while I write this as I am excited just thinking about this. I must admit that I am scared. I don't know how I will react. I know that when we meet it will be like it was supposed to be, "Perfect". Just as we will be together.

I want to bear fruits with you.

I will surrender myself completely to you. I hope you enjoy it. I will finally be with you. I will be ready for you. I will move anywhere you want me too and leave my old life behind if I must. I am not scared of jumping up and leaving as I have in the past. I am willing to be with you and only be happy with you. You will fulfill my crazy ideas, my crazy actions, and make me feel like the woman I am.

I know that if i am nervous in any way, you will be there to console me and to calm my nerves. Baby, please do not think its because I don't want to be with you and they are nerves of regret. They are nerves of contentment. They are nerves of finally being with you after all this time lost. I sigh when I write this because I know that this is my destiny, to find you and be with you.

You are mine. You will be in my arms finally. I am very excited. I am like a little girl waiting to open her gift as it had been placed in front of me for a great while and I cannot open it until a certain time.

I will give you anything you need. I will understand. I will believe. I will surrender. I am completely yours. I will make you happy. I will be the submissive wife you deserve. I will be your whore. I will be the one that will overwhelm your desires. I hope you can keep up with me. There is enough of everything for you. I will be happy with you and I guarantee you will be happy with me. I have all the time in the world for you.

You are my New Year and you will always be mine FOREVER!!