Slowly Dying

Dying slowly is how I feel without you.

I cried myself last night to sleep. I know that there are some steps I must take so that I do not hurt. The saying is, "If it comes back, its yours". I believe that this quote says a lot in such little words.

I feel like I am dying slowly. I am dying because I am missing your love in my life. I want you with me Lancelot. I know that I repeat myself in these damn blogs, but I don't know how else to express this to you. You are the key element for me to stay alive. You are the one that holds the key to my heart. I still have not seen you come and open it. Where are you?? Why don't you take that step to open my heart? Why is it so hard for you to use the key??

Once you open it, you will feel the outburst of love that you need to feel. I want you to feel what you are not feeling now. I need you to feel the love that you deserve to feel. You are designed for me. You were created for me. We are what we need for each other. You have the key I have the heart. Lets unite once and for all. I know we can. Why are you scared to take that step?

I miss all of you. I miss our talks, our text, our messages..

I feel alone. Without you to open my heart, I will die slowly.

Do you want this??

My kids love you and they dont even know you. My kids ask for you and I am speechless. I look for you and you are not there. I am sad, I am lonely, I need you to be here for me. You know that i am going through a tough time. You know I need you by my side. I don't know how to take this situation. New Years is around the corner. I want to be with you on such a special day. I want to start the New Years with you.

Say the word and I am there.

I want you, this is all I know!!